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Ok, for some reason i feel really pissed off. I have been like this the last couple of days. The place changes you so much and i don't even know hot i'm going to be when i am finally done with this. I used to have no fear of death, no i can say for sure that i do not have any fear of death. The only way a soilder can as to die is in combat and the hands of another enemy. Its seems to be the only thing that is honorable anymore. I think the whole world needs to look into that honor thing cause most of these Iraqi fucks are 2 scared to face us.
Events on the civillian side of my life are also pissing me off. Christi always threatens me when i tell her i wanna do something i don't agree with and this time i told her to go fuck her self and i have better things to do than worry about if my life makes her happy. Katha is freaking out because of the kids and i guess that is expected, it sucks i can't be more there for her but to me she is asking a lot considering the stress i deal with on a daily basic. I think we are both unsensitive to eachothers needs. Of course i am not smell checking this thing as always cause you get to see more of my raw emontion.
I also need to update these thigns more offten. Its hard to balance when i try to read everyones journal and post some comments on them, its like a hobby cause i want people to read my journal and i also want to know i care about everyone else lifes. I probably sound like a little bitch and everyone is like "stop winning, you don't get shot at every day, you just get motared 2-3 times a week." Other people in iraq have it worse than i do. I have to go now. Take it easy everyone.
Events on the civillian side of my life are also pissing me off. Christi always threatens me when i tell her i wanna do something i don't agree with and this time i told her to go fuck her self and i have better things to do than worry about if my life makes her happy. Katha is freaking out because of the kids and i guess that is expected, it sucks i can't be more there for her but to me she is asking a lot considering the stress i deal with on a daily basic. I think we are both unsensitive to eachothers needs. Of course i am not smell checking this thing as always cause you get to see more of my raw emontion.
I also need to update these thigns more offten. Its hard to balance when i try to read everyones journal and post some comments on them, its like a hobby cause i want people to read my journal and i also want to know i care about everyone else lifes. I probably sound like a little bitch and everyone is like "stop winning, you don't get shot at every day, you just get motared 2-3 times a week." Other people in iraq have it worse than i do. I have to go now. Take it easy everyone.