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i’m gonna have a nephew come may!!! i can’t believe it!! i knew i would be an aunt, but being able to refer to the baby as “he” rather than “it” makes it so much more real. a baby boy to take care of, to teach important things like how to play hockey, how to rock out to the classics, how to tie his shoes, how to memorize the lines of dumb and ( Read more... )

i’m driving to orchestra. bend down to change the music. peripheral vision catches a big white bulb to my left. think, they built a new water tower. white bulb right on the horizon. teasing the trees that just can’t reach. not a water tower. but i still can’t see straight on. driving and all. finally. a chance to turn. to look. what the ( Read more... )

"what if this is as good as it gets?"

each time another guest arrived today, my dad had to retell his wreck story. and each time i heard it i got closer to throwing up out of fear. he fell asleep at the wheel on monday and drifted across the road and into a tree. i don't know why it's freaking me out more now than it did when i first heard, but it is. the doctor says he's fine and ( Read more... )

i just finished watching one of the greatest movies ever made...again, hehe. yeah, i'm just procrastinating, avoiding that bane of my existence that is government. my logic is that when i'm old and gray, the shawshank redemption will have had a much larger influence on my life than coach mick. well at least it will make me happier ( Read more... )

i feel undefinably good right now…yeah, i guess that’s the way to say it. if you asked me why i feel this way, i wouldn’t be able to tell you because nothing has really happened. nothing really great anyways. and i bet if i thought about it, i could find lots of stuff that has gone wrong lately but ( Read more... )

i will never ever be able to think of ten feet as a short distance. and that's funny cause i only associate that length with being long because of the deep end of my pool. it was such an accomplishment to be able to stay on the drain on the bottom of the pool (the base in sharks and minnows) for the first time. looking up toward the surface from ( Read more... )

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