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[inherentharmony]

i'm tired of indefinitely feeling this way - indefinitely for the past two years... i guess this time of year is particularly difficult for me.  but the bottom line is, i'm sick of it.  i'm sick of not being able to move on, to get past it.  i'm sick of not being able to look back at the past few years of my life and decide that it was well spent

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[idefygravityi]

we should join/form a support group.

perhaps first we should analyze our past, decide if it really was love, and if love can be one sided or if 2 must share it for it to count as love. and then we can talk about how we didn't want to fall, ended up falling unwillingly, and then got crushed, no, decimated in the end. and picking up your world and re-assembling it after a nuclear explosion of an ending is not easy. especially when it feels like your heart stopped functioning and you can't breathe.

and then we can talk about all the progress we've made, which really isnt much at all. because whenever we see mike/michael we feel our lunch come back up in our throats and we can't find anything nice to say.

or maybe that's just me. but i still say lets have a support group.

[inherentharmony]

when does the group start? haha :)

[idefygravityi]

we could do ice cream later this week? right now, my education blocks have me swamped with work, but it should be back under control at the tail end of this week. send me an IM or something boo :o)

[dreamthrumusic]

it took me four years to get to the point that it doesn't hurt every day. the line about how you can't even talk about what's wrong because the people who know don't want to hear about it anymore - totally been there.

there's an exercise i read about a couple years ago that really helped me to move on a bit. take a chair and put it in the center of the room. pretend the person you can't move on from is sitting in that chair. say goodbye - say why you're saying goodbye, tell him of the pain he's put you through...anything and everything. after you've said goodbye, make a list of things you are going to do to make yourself happier.

yeah, perhaps it's a little corny, but it was an awesome release. although for me, it only lasted a little while because a month after i did that exercise he called me thanking me for always being so nice to him and said that he regretted breaking up with me. but that's another story. :-)

*big hug*

oh, and no worries about the lack of comment in my journal - we're all a bit busy. :-)

[inherentharmony]

i think i'll try that! haha, thanks janelle :)

[xroadtonowherex]

hey zach

[inherentharmony]

i really do think that being here in good old isolated potsdam definitely doesn't help the situation... thanks for all your input, i really appreciate it!!

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