...so easy to end this

[inhereyesifall]

it would be so easy to end this

( i think i just might)

but there'd be no coming back 
what would i be coming back to?
i don't make up for all i lack

( can't do this anymore)

the pain builds up and up
until it hurts to function normally
can't you understand?
can't you see

(how hard i've had to fight?)

how my world is self-destructing
and 5 seconds aren't

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[i_scar_myself]

That's absolutely beautiful... Did you write it?

:)

yup

[inhereyesifall]

all the poems in my journal are mine =)

norabear

[i_scar_myself]

I figured that out. *smiles*

I'm not just saying this for the sake of saying this, but your poems really move me. Do you have a sole motivation?

:)

hmm...

[inhereyesifall]

i guess because...well...
I was abused for 14 years...and...the poems that are about flashbacks, etc. i just wanna...like...say to my mind, "anything you can do, i can do better...if you want to torment me, i'll just turn it into words, and music, and neutralize it with photography. now, please. leave. "

i guess if i'm not being 'inspired' by somehting, im trying to fight off self-injury urges. well its more like an ache deep in your bones, but you know...

norabear