And just how long am I to be,
Lost in the blue of misery?
As the last of my hope slowly withers and dies,
And my rotten heart beats as the wings of flies.


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Finally got around to quitting Suicide Girls. I can almost taste the freedom.
It's been the monkey looking over my shoulder for a while now.
It'll be nice to do what I want.

And my boobs are shrinking now.
A few weeks ago it was 10stone, and now it's 9stone10 - I didn't even realise.
Only 1stone10 until I'm clinically 'Anorexic'.

I love my bones.

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So, I think the expression says something about 'Flogging a dead Horse' .
I wouldn't be acting so nonchalant about it were I not extremely exhausted and numbed by the whole thing. I guess I've cried over it so many times that the repitition is making the situation resemble 52 card pick-up but I'm not so much amused by the game as I am fed up that ( Read more... )

Let's just think about this for a while. It's not like you have anywhere to go.

I'm sinking through the dirt with the 'heavy' and I can't seem to make myself stick. My conscience is dragging my further down and though few in number, every logical fibre in my being is telling me get out now. Remembering how it felt last time seems to comfort me for a ( Read more... )

Tonight I say 'Goodbye' to the illusion. To the stupidity and the secrets. To all the moments I thought I'd break, and to all the things I could've believed in. I wanted to be able to hold on but I just made it hurt. And now I don't want to feel anything. So fuck it, right?

I was only ever crazy when you wanted to abase me. And really, from what I ( Read more... )

I must have been alone for all of five minutes last night when I my mind started to wander and I was surrounded by thoughts of my own mortality.
I lay down on his bed and stared into the eyes of death, pondering what slept behined the doors of eternity. 'I mustn't be afraid' I thought, as the pertruding eyeballs of the painted reaper glared into ( Read more... )