Don't Hesitate (5)
Title: Don't Hesitate
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
Rating: 14 + ?
For plauradon. I hope you know I'm holding you to that then btw ;)
Description: Sophie's a vampire hunter and Sian's a vampire. They fall in love but Sophie hates what Sian is because her parents were killed by a vampire... Original, eh ? :)
SIAN'S POV
The crippling burn in my throat stood nothing compared to the ache in my heart. It was good for me in a way, I suppose, because it distracted me. Made me forget that I was hungry. Made me forget even if it was just for moments at a time, that I was a vile murderer. God, I was hungry. So hungry it was hard to breathe, hard to process any thoughts. And that was good too because if I thought about Sophie anymore, my head would explode. Despite everything that happened between us, I've started thinking that maybe she was never really mine. And the more I think about it, the more it makes sense.
I had to get out of the hole I was in. I'd spent 4 nights there but everything started to remind me of Sophie. The broken table, the ripped couch, the door-less cupboards. Everything. I'd never gone more than a day without feeding and I was feeling the effects of more than a week without blood. There was no strength in me whatsoever. It was more than a task to even walk. My feet trailed weakly along the ground as I moved. To the people who passed me I must have just looked drunk. Alcohol would do me no good right now, I'm as numb as I could possibly be and I can still feel.
What I'd give to not feel. Even if it were just for an instant. I don't suppose I really have anything left to give now though.
A scream pierces my ears and I feel a rush of something shoot through me. My body tenses and I strain my ears to hear. Another scream. I move quickly towards the noise unsure of why I'm doing it or of what I'm about to face. I find myself running, nowhere near as fast as I usually run but still, I could outrun any human.
"Get off me!" I enter an alleyway and see a young red-head pinned to the wall. I can only hear one heartbeat and it's hers. The guy pinning her to the wall must be a vampire. He doesn't smell human.
"Get off!" The red-head screams again ramming the heel of her hand against his chin.
"Bitch!" He roars and grabs the top of her jacket, throws her into the air and slams her to the ground. He darts to her body and sinks his fangs into her neck.
A second later, I have him against the wall the same way he had her a moment ago. I'm surprised by how strong I still am, I need both of my hands to hold him so he doesn't move but it works. His eyes go wide when he realizes he can't get away. He grabs at my hands but I hold tight.
"You're...a..vampire." He wheezes still struggling a little against me.
"You're an animal." I hiss squeezing tighter. He gasps.
"I'm hungry." He growls whipping his knee up to hit me but I slam his leg back to the wall with my own before he makes contact. I hear a snapping and he screams in pain.
"Not for long." I whisper and jerk my hands snapping his neck quickly. It wasn't the first time I'd killed a vampire but that didn't make it any easier. I removed my hands from his neck and let his body slump to the floor. His body would disappear shortly. No one will ever know.
My eyes fall onto his body and I once again feel shame wash over me. I just can't help it, can I? No matter where I go or what I do it always results in death.
I hear the red-head groan as she regains the consciousness she lost when she was smashed to the floor. I go quickly to her side. Please don't let me have been too late. I brush her long hair from her neck and see the two small holes that are already closing. Fuck! She's healing, the blood doesn't smell human. She's been turned.
She gasps and starts thrashing wildly on the ground, unable to even voice her agony. I remember it. I remember the pain of it, the feeling of the venom coursing through your body, infecting every human cell, slowly killing you, turning you into a beast of the night. I grip her arms, holding her tightly to the ground as she continues to squirm and buck, shaking her head from side to side, her eyes sealed tightly shut.
"It's okay." I assure her but I know it's not. I feel it inside me again. I feel how the poor girl feels. Her eyes snap open and all I see is Sophie. Her eyes are the exact same colour, they're beautiful but they're still nothing on Sophie's. No one's eyes are as stunning as hers.
"Help..." She gasps in agony. The word must have been so hard to get out.
"It's okay." I repeat. The holes on her neck have closed but the scars will remain forever. She'll be wishing she was dead right now, wishing anything as long as it meant the pain was gone. She'll never have been in more pain than what's she's in right now... I'd never felt anything like it either, well..until a few days ago.
A scream rips from her throat and she arches off the ground. God help her, 'cause the next few hours are only going to get worse.
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"I'm...hungry...." The red-head whispers, wiping the sweat from her forehead.
I carried her to the place I'd been glad to leave. The abandoned flats were the only place I could think of taking her. There was nowhere else. She got over the shock of what had happened fairly quickly. It made it easy for me because I don't think I could have dealt with any crying and screaming and moaning. It doesn't really seem to bother her that she's dead...a vampire. But I suppose it's difficult to think clearly now.
"Well, I'm afraid you're gonna have to tough that out....for awhile." I sigh scratching the back of my neck. I've dealt with new vampires before...but I don't know how she's going to react to me not allowing her to feed and kill. If she doesn't like it then I'm killing...leaving her on her own. "What's your name by the way?" I ask realizing I don't know it yet.
"Megan." She croaks. The pain's subsiding now but it's still there. "Yours?"
"Sian." I tell her unable to take my eyes from hers. They're darker now but they still look so much like Sophie's. I don't think I'm going to be able to help her and stay with her...I don't think I can take looking at her and being reminded of what I'll never have.
"I'm a vampire." Megan whispers as if she doesn't believe it. I don't blame her.
"I'm sorry." I apologize feeling like if I'd get to her half a second sooner she wouldn't have this curse.
"It's not your fault." She sighs and then screws her face up clutching at her heart. The heart that's no longer beating inside her. It is my fault.
"Yeah." Is all I can manage to say.
"I feel like...I'm burning.." She gasps and she starts dripping with sweat suddenly.
"I promise you'll be okay...you just need to let it happen." I inform her pulling the damp hair from her face.
"Thanks..." She wheezes between gasping breaths.
"What for?" I ask not knowing of any reason for her to be thanking me.
"Saving me." She answers quickly before letting out a scream of pain.
"You'll be cursing me soon." I tell her honestly when she stops screaming.
"Maybe." Megan chuckles then winces.
I smile for the first time in a week. It's a small smile that fades because I think of Sophie again but it surprises me that I'm still able to.
"You need to sleep." I say sweeping her red hair from her face again then standing up.
"Easier said than done." She breathes shakily.
"I know. I'll be right here though...It's okay." The words sound meaningless. How could knowing I'm here possibly comfort her?
"Yeah." She whispers.
Megan doesn't fall asleep until a few hours later. Those hours were filled with her screams and moans. Just when I thought I was going to snap she stopped and finally fell asleep.
When she wakes she'll need blood, especially with her just being turned. I don't know what I'm going to do. I sit staring at her, wishing that she was awake...just so I could see her eyes.
I hate the pain that comes with remembering Sophie but I don't want to forget her. My eyes slip shut but sleep doesn't come. It hasn't since I was without her. All I see is her face. And for the millionth time I wonder where she is...what she's doing. For the millionth time the tears slip from my eyes as I recall every second I spent with her.
thank you for reading :)
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
Rating: 14 + ?
For plauradon. I hope you know I'm holding you to that then btw ;)
Description: Sophie's a vampire hunter and Sian's a vampire. They fall in love but Sophie hates what Sian is because her parents were killed by a vampire... Original, eh ? :)
SIAN'S POV
The crippling burn in my throat stood nothing compared to the ache in my heart. It was good for me in a way, I suppose, because it distracted me. Made me forget that I was hungry. Made me forget even if it was just for moments at a time, that I was a vile murderer. God, I was hungry. So hungry it was hard to breathe, hard to process any thoughts. And that was good too because if I thought about Sophie anymore, my head would explode. Despite everything that happened between us, I've started thinking that maybe she was never really mine. And the more I think about it, the more it makes sense.
I had to get out of the hole I was in. I'd spent 4 nights there but everything started to remind me of Sophie. The broken table, the ripped couch, the door-less cupboards. Everything. I'd never gone more than a day without feeding and I was feeling the effects of more than a week without blood. There was no strength in me whatsoever. It was more than a task to even walk. My feet trailed weakly along the ground as I moved. To the people who passed me I must have just looked drunk. Alcohol would do me no good right now, I'm as numb as I could possibly be and I can still feel.
What I'd give to not feel. Even if it were just for an instant. I don't suppose I really have anything left to give now though.
A scream pierces my ears and I feel a rush of something shoot through me. My body tenses and I strain my ears to hear. Another scream. I move quickly towards the noise unsure of why I'm doing it or of what I'm about to face. I find myself running, nowhere near as fast as I usually run but still, I could outrun any human.
"Get off me!" I enter an alleyway and see a young red-head pinned to the wall. I can only hear one heartbeat and it's hers. The guy pinning her to the wall must be a vampire. He doesn't smell human.
"Get off!" The red-head screams again ramming the heel of her hand against his chin.
"Bitch!" He roars and grabs the top of her jacket, throws her into the air and slams her to the ground. He darts to her body and sinks his fangs into her neck.
A second later, I have him against the wall the same way he had her a moment ago. I'm surprised by how strong I still am, I need both of my hands to hold him so he doesn't move but it works. His eyes go wide when he realizes he can't get away. He grabs at my hands but I hold tight.
"You're...a..vampire." He wheezes still struggling a little against me.
"You're an animal." I hiss squeezing tighter. He gasps.
"I'm hungry." He growls whipping his knee up to hit me but I slam his leg back to the wall with my own before he makes contact. I hear a snapping and he screams in pain.
"Not for long." I whisper and jerk my hands snapping his neck quickly. It wasn't the first time I'd killed a vampire but that didn't make it any easier. I removed my hands from his neck and let his body slump to the floor. His body would disappear shortly. No one will ever know.
My eyes fall onto his body and I once again feel shame wash over me. I just can't help it, can I? No matter where I go or what I do it always results in death.
I hear the red-head groan as she regains the consciousness she lost when she was smashed to the floor. I go quickly to her side. Please don't let me have been too late. I brush her long hair from her neck and see the two small holes that are already closing. Fuck! She's healing, the blood doesn't smell human. She's been turned.
She gasps and starts thrashing wildly on the ground, unable to even voice her agony. I remember it. I remember the pain of it, the feeling of the venom coursing through your body, infecting every human cell, slowly killing you, turning you into a beast of the night. I grip her arms, holding her tightly to the ground as she continues to squirm and buck, shaking her head from side to side, her eyes sealed tightly shut.
"It's okay." I assure her but I know it's not. I feel it inside me again. I feel how the poor girl feels. Her eyes snap open and all I see is Sophie. Her eyes are the exact same colour, they're beautiful but they're still nothing on Sophie's. No one's eyes are as stunning as hers.
"Help..." She gasps in agony. The word must have been so hard to get out.
"It's okay." I repeat. The holes on her neck have closed but the scars will remain forever. She'll be wishing she was dead right now, wishing anything as long as it meant the pain was gone. She'll never have been in more pain than what's she's in right now... I'd never felt anything like it either, well..until a few days ago.
A scream rips from her throat and she arches off the ground. God help her, 'cause the next few hours are only going to get worse.
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"I'm...hungry...." The red-head whispers, wiping the sweat from her forehead.
I carried her to the place I'd been glad to leave. The abandoned flats were the only place I could think of taking her. There was nowhere else. She got over the shock of what had happened fairly quickly. It made it easy for me because I don't think I could have dealt with any crying and screaming and moaning. It doesn't really seem to bother her that she's dead...a vampire. But I suppose it's difficult to think clearly now.
"Well, I'm afraid you're gonna have to tough that out....for awhile." I sigh scratching the back of my neck. I've dealt with new vampires before...but I don't know how she's going to react to me not allowing her to feed and kill. If she doesn't like it then I'm killing...leaving her on her own. "What's your name by the way?" I ask realizing I don't know it yet.
"Megan." She croaks. The pain's subsiding now but it's still there. "Yours?"
"Sian." I tell her unable to take my eyes from hers. They're darker now but they still look so much like Sophie's. I don't think I'm going to be able to help her and stay with her...I don't think I can take looking at her and being reminded of what I'll never have.
"I'm a vampire." Megan whispers as if she doesn't believe it. I don't blame her.
"I'm sorry." I apologize feeling like if I'd get to her half a second sooner she wouldn't have this curse.
"It's not your fault." She sighs and then screws her face up clutching at her heart. The heart that's no longer beating inside her. It is my fault.
"Yeah." Is all I can manage to say.
"I feel like...I'm burning.." She gasps and she starts dripping with sweat suddenly.
"I promise you'll be okay...you just need to let it happen." I inform her pulling the damp hair from her face.
"Thanks..." She wheezes between gasping breaths.
"What for?" I ask not knowing of any reason for her to be thanking me.
"Saving me." She answers quickly before letting out a scream of pain.
"You'll be cursing me soon." I tell her honestly when she stops screaming.
"Maybe." Megan chuckles then winces.
I smile for the first time in a week. It's a small smile that fades because I think of Sophie again but it surprises me that I'm still able to.
"You need to sleep." I say sweeping her red hair from her face again then standing up.
"Easier said than done." She breathes shakily.
"I know. I'll be right here though...It's okay." The words sound meaningless. How could knowing I'm here possibly comfort her?
"Yeah." She whispers.
Megan doesn't fall asleep until a few hours later. Those hours were filled with her screams and moans. Just when I thought I was going to snap she stopped and finally fell asleep.
When she wakes she'll need blood, especially with her just being turned. I don't know what I'm going to do. I sit staring at her, wishing that she was awake...just so I could see her eyes.
I hate the pain that comes with remembering Sophie but I don't want to forget her. My eyes slip shut but sleep doesn't come. It hasn't since I was without her. All I see is her face. And for the millionth time I wonder where she is...what she's doing. For the millionth time the tears slip from my eyes as I recall every second I spent with her.
thank you for reading :)