[Filter]: Headspace
So I've made the decision to accept that there might be something chemically wrong with me, and am in the sort of really frustrating process of seeking appropriate help. I hesitate to go to my primary care physician, because she seems to medicate without discussion. If I need medication, that's fine, I'm not resistant to it, but I kind of want a doctor who views it as a last resort, not as a quick-fix.
Anyway, I know some of you have darker pasts you'd not like to revisit anytime soon. So, I'm going to filter any posts discussing my...depression? Personality disorder? I don't even know what it is yet. If you think you could offer support or advice or insight, by all means, ask to be on the filter. If you, too, have days that are worse than your average bad day, and think you can learn something from me, or take comfort in the fact that someone else is going through this too, that YOU ARE NOT ALONE, of course ask to be on the filter. If no one feels comfortable on the filter, that's totally ok too. I'll lock it so that only I can access it.
I just, I know for me, it helps a lot to know I'm not alone in something that much of our culture tries not to talk about.
This might seem extreme, I suppose, especially since my "dark" is mostly an inability to function. Do I ever have self-harming thoughts? Sometimes, but they are infrequent, and they REMAIN thoughts. I am not at a place where I don't think I have anything to live for. I KNOW how much I have to live for, I just want to be ABLE to live my life. I want getting out of bed not to seem like the insurmountable obstacle it sometimes is.
My point is, I guess, a sort of positive disclaimer: I am not suicidal, nor have I ever been. I just go through periods where even thinking is just too exhausting. I'll sleep in late, try to function, and then sleep some more because the day is just too much to face. So. If somewhat infrequent posts about this are ok with you, great. I'd certainly like the support. I would say there may be a post like this every couple of days, so it's not something you'd be spammed with. But it helps to share what I'm going through.
Poll Headspace Filter
Anyway, I know some of you have darker pasts you'd not like to revisit anytime soon. So, I'm going to filter any posts discussing my...depression? Personality disorder? I don't even know what it is yet. If you think you could offer support or advice or insight, by all means, ask to be on the filter. If you, too, have days that are worse than your average bad day, and think you can learn something from me, or take comfort in the fact that someone else is going through this too, that YOU ARE NOT ALONE, of course ask to be on the filter. If no one feels comfortable on the filter, that's totally ok too. I'll lock it so that only I can access it.
I just, I know for me, it helps a lot to know I'm not alone in something that much of our culture tries not to talk about.
This might seem extreme, I suppose, especially since my "dark" is mostly an inability to function. Do I ever have self-harming thoughts? Sometimes, but they are infrequent, and they REMAIN thoughts. I am not at a place where I don't think I have anything to live for. I KNOW how much I have to live for, I just want to be ABLE to live my life. I want getting out of bed not to seem like the insurmountable obstacle it sometimes is.
My point is, I guess, a sort of positive disclaimer: I am not suicidal, nor have I ever been. I just go through periods where even thinking is just too exhausting. I'll sleep in late, try to function, and then sleep some more because the day is just too much to face. So. If somewhat infrequent posts about this are ok with you, great. I'd certainly like the support. I would say there may be a post like this every couple of days, so it's not something you'd be spammed with. But it helps to share what I'm going through.
Poll Headspace Filter