on the tattoo that wasn't, and a realignment of reality

[inkandrunes]

Hullo again! At this point, I should be back on a semi-regular basis. This is a long post, but I would ask you all to bear with me, because most of it is really important to me, and I would love feedback on the last half, if nothing else

Comments

[lenaperry]

{{hugs}}

I'm a big believer in everything happening for a reason. I'm also a big fan of personal boundaries and being true to them. Kudos to you for sticking up for yourself. You'll get your tattoo - no doubt about it - and I'm sure it will be at a time that doesn't get clouded with all that fun family crap that happens. I have a stepsister, too - my mother's husband's daughter - and she isn't really a part of my life. That's not due to any animosity or anything ... I'm not the hugest fan of my stepfather ... and she's actually not much of a fan of her dad either ... so that's just kind of how that shakes out. It's weird, because I'm an only child too and always wished for a sister. Just didn't expect to get one in the way that I did. Oh, life. LOL!

Exciting to read about the future and you and C. I wish you all the best! :)

[inkandrunes]

I'm a big believer in everything happening for a reason.

Oh yes, so am I :) I think that this definitely happened so that I could realize other people have been wanting me to live their lives, ultimately, and that those lives are not what I want to be living.

And thanks very much!

[shveta_thakrar]

*hug*

I'm so glad you're finding a place where you're loved without conditions. :) Congrats on the almost engagement!

[inkandrunes]

Thanks!

<3

[nalathilion]

It sounds like your step-mom & step-sisters are quite immature & possibly jealous of you. I just can't quite wrap my brain around why they think gossiping about you to your dad would have any kind of positive effect.

Set boundaries with these people. Obviously, they don't have a clue. Why would you open yourself up to them if all they are going to do is take advantage of you? I would have totally booted them from Facebook too. I would also lock down my LJ for a while on a 'just in case' basis. Follow your heart & your path - it's YOUR life. So live it the way that makes you feel the most fulfilled & happy.

[inkandrunes]

I don't know if immature is the right word, exactly, though I would suspect jealousy is part of it. And I don't mind at all that this is the way everything turned out. It made me realize that I've been trying to live the life others have wanted me to lead, and that it's not the life I want. So now that I have that knowledge, I have to figure out what to do with it. I am going to tread carefully with my dad, since we have a great relationship, but it's gotten to the point where I know I will be ok if he doesn't agree with my future choices, from where I will live to what I'll do for a living to who I will marry.

I'll definitely still get the tattoo (and others!) in the future.

Thanks for the encouragement!

[feedthewolves]

The tattoo sounds beautiful! I have a sparrow on my right shoulder, just below my collar bone. When the time comes to get yours, it will be great, I'm sure! The family stuff sucks, but at least you're doing something to both keep your boundaries and the family peace. That is a difficult path to walk, but hopefully the important people will understand why you are doing it.

Also, congratulations on your future engagement!! I love hearing other people's love stories. <3

[inkandrunes]

I am not too worried about walking the line between my boundaries and keeping the peace; I finally feel like the ties that bound me have been severed, at least on my end. Sure, I still have to put off my tattoo while my parents are contributing to my car payments due to the extended "My house, my rules" in effect, but that should only HOPEFULLY be for the next year, maybe less.

I waited 11 years to get my first tattoo. I can wait one more for my second ;)