out with the old...in with the new
So, about my year this year and what I hope to achieve in 2006...
...as many of you know, my Mom passed away on January 1st this year after battling SLE (lupus) for more than 20 years. That started my year out pretty crappy. Had a girlfriend at the time...she broke up with me WHILE I was in California for my Mom's funeral cuz she wasn't "the center of your universe" at the time. Umm...no!! c'est la vie...
The next big event of the year was passing my state nursing boards and hearing my best friend, Jules (aka texxyboi), give me the results. I will NEVER forget that day as long as I live, Jules...*muah* I got my license ON my birthday...what a rawkin fuckin present. Was a bit bittersweet cuz neither of my folks was around to enjoy it with me but I know they are watchin over me and huggin each other while sayin "FINALLY!!" (I've wanted to be a nurse since I was tiny little)
Then I met Jessy in March and my life changed forever. She was the first partner I'd ever had that I didn't run from when things got tough. She was the first person that I ever allowed 'in' fully and I learned alot from her.
July, I moved to Florida and loved the weather and my job...oh man, I loved my job. But then came problems in the relationship with Jessy and my health became a major issue for me. Once I came to terms with needing to go to the place where I could be completely vulnerable and allow myself to hurt, I came home to Indiana. I needed to be here...with my brother. (even tho Jules tried like hell to get me to move to TX)
I did alot of travelling this year...California, St. Louis, Vegas (HELL YEAH!!), Florida, Texas... and I learned alot from my travels.
Even tho the uncertainty of my health looms over me and taunts me, I am so amazingly thankful for being relatively healthy (so I have a fucked up spine and some not-so-hot tits...whatevah!) and having this INCREDIBLE support system of friends and family.
What I want outta 2006? My surgeries to be over and uneventful...get my prereqs done to finish my RN... travel...lose 30 lbs...get more tats (hehehe)...and finally quit fearing the unknown. I will truly live by this motto... Live more, laugh more, fear little.
Happy 2006 everyone...live your fears!!