I'm always a thousand times more nervous for results of a test rather than the test itself ( Read more... )

 ib is so fun.

 So. This is my week off, mostly. I don't have any SAT class or volunteering at ECC. 
I'm compulsively trying to keep myself busy.

Do anything. Anything at all, almost. 
Looking forward to starting school.

 I had a really scary nightmare involving kids who ruined my house and everything i liked in it.
I was soooo mad. so mad. in my dreams. 

 I'm decently well off college applications-wise, but sometimes i see other people and i'm just. 
not awesome. 
I don't feel awesome, i don't even feel average smart, i feel dumb next to them. 

 "I look weird with eyebrows"
"It's easy to compliment me"
"You don't even need a bathtub to suicide!"
"So this is what its like to be pregnant"
"uteubeeee"

Everything is making me cry these days. Not necessarily in a bad way, but more in a purely emotional way.

It is so weird. 

 Yay, i got my jawline back.

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 To prove sleep is extremely essential to brain function,
this week's SAT practice test, I dropped about 100 points on verbal, 
dragging my score down to a 2060, i think. give or take ten points.

Though I did a little better on the math section (720) and writing section (670),
verbal fell from (750-770) to (650-670).

I originally passed it off as a ( Read more... )