i decided long ago:
"never let your loved ones know who you really are,
people want the truth but never want the scars."

when i reach a functional hysteria at our capacity for loss, there is one thought that curbs it. i have a single consolation, one slim exit lane (lit as an airplane isle, with tiny white lights) past the cloverleaf of worry and of grief: a reasonable person cannot loose herself in lamenting human suffering without counting herself as a participant ( Read more... )

..and maybe the winter does this to everyone, but it seems like you’re the only one whose heart is as cold as it is outside..

Seriously, though. I don't get girls who pluck their eyebrows until there is nothing left and then proceed to fill in the space where their eyebrows USED to be with pencil.

Vermont for the weekend for this[and some much needed time away from Rhode Island] with my favorite boys.

Back Monday.

I have a corneal ulcer in my left eye.

Which hurts, quite a bit. And makes it hard to see much of anything.

Meh.

GWAR last night. The Red Chord opened. Awesome. Most fun I've had at a show in a long, long time.

It was a nice change of pace, musically, as I've been listening to nothing but Alice in Chains and Xasthur for the past week or so. Yeah. Grunge Rock and Black Metal. Weird. I blame the weather.

FOR STORMY:


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you've got my number, you can make the call: until then i wont bother you at all. i'd let you walk all over me again, but a smile is something i could not pretend. and every time i felt like this was wrong you made me feel like i should tag along. once or twice it would be nice to see you, even if i don't believe you.there'll be no doubt, ( Read more... )

My mood lately? Please see Ocean Machine's "Night".. 'cause that's as close to an explanation as I can get. And it's not very close at all.

i've been holed up in the frost
breathing in my own exhaust
i've got movies in my head
making loops of words we said

it's times like this when everything goes black and white; there's so much more that i want to say, but i can't and you know what? that's all right.