so nice to know

[inkstaingirl]

that when i feel like i'm at the absolute bottom, i can count on one or maybe even two people to actually read my pathetic cry for help (see last entry) wait, that's a joke, since only one person read/commented on my last entry,(thanks, tanith!) who the fuck is gonna read this one? i guess i'm just talking to myself here

Comments

[miztaknidentity]

i want you to know i did read your last entry! and i've been thinking about it the last few days trying to figure out the right thing to say. "You do mean something", and "you are special" seemed so cliche. The truth is, keegan, that you remind me that i want to be unique. i know no one else like you, and you make me wish that i could be like that too. That no one would ever say again, "OMG this girl reminds me so much of you, you're like, twins!" Because i was so ME, that no one else could ever come close to being me. To me, you are that person. I know we didnt hang out very often, but i REALLY liked you, and i hope you know that i Do read your posts, and they often make me think, and that sometimes, i don't repond because i can't think of anything...~right~ to say. Yea kno?

PS your post/poem caused me to do major writing after i read it. you were my muse! :)

[inkstaingirl]

wow, a muse? neato. i always wanted tobe a muse. thanks, mal. i like you too. you're still gonna be coming near the bay area, right?

[inkstaingirl]

oh, and only you remind me of you. thought you'd like to know that.
'dude, i know this girl mallory, she's JUST LIKE YOU! like, twins!'

[hkaav]

<3 <3 <3

[inkstaingirl]

<3 <3 <3
see you in a couple of days!

[hkaav]

yesss!

[liberalwarrior]

honestly, i skimmed over your post cause i thought they were song lyrics. i never read those.

and now that i have (and i'm ONLY checking LJ because i happened to post for once, and you left me comments) i can respond.

crap, now i feel like i have to say something really awe inspiring that will make you happy. i just stared at this screen for 10 freaking minutes thinking. i have nothing. except. . everybody on freaking LJ is emo so they don't have any answers. i guess all we can offer is sympathy and understanding. we're in the same boat, but we all love each other so it makes it a little easier. i know how determined you are, and i never really worry were you will be in the future. if you honestly give it your best, things will work out. and you're the kind of person i look up to with high standards, so you'll do fine. just hang in there and we'll be here for ya.

[inkstaingirl]

wow, 10 minutes! i feel special now.
you're right, chris, lj is emo, that's why we're on it i guess. i was just sad because since no one (except tanith) said anything i assumed that no one was listening or cared, thanks for letting me know that isn't true. i really appreciate it. all i really wanted was for someone to say 'yeah i've been there and i'll be there for you' which is exactly what you said. so yeah, my tears are of gratitude now chris.

[liberalwarrior]

<3

huh?

[inkstaingirl]

ummm your comment is blank?

[itsmyhoohaw]

<3 well you know i read it cuz i was on the fone with you when i did. it left me feeling sad for you and i didn't know how to say that, like what mallory said, sounding stupid and cliche

<3 i hope yer feeling better now tho. i'll see you tonight.

[inkstaingirl]

it was really awkward being on the phone with you when you read it. in my mind, your silence meant disapproval, like you were mad at me or something. it would have been nice for you to talk to me about it even if what you said was a cliche or whatever, at least it would show me that you were concerned, you know?
honestly, you didn't have to *say* anything, just asking questions like 'why do you feel this way' or something would have been helpful. but now i feel stupid like i'm trying to instruct you on how to be my shrink, whatever.
i'm grateful to know that you're here for me even if you do a crappy job of showing it.

[inkstaingirl]

aww, tanith! i love you too! what are you doing tonight?