120 seconds of school-centric bitching, to get it out so I can focus.
日本語 is making me fucking miserable, right now.
This is my least favorite class. It is more effort than all of my four other classes combined, and at least in this moment (when I admittedly put off my homework way too late until I am exhausted and pissed off; so yes, clearly I could be a better student) I fucking hate it.
Please don't tell me that I probably shouldn't be taking this class, then. I'm fully aware of how much this is not the attitude I should have about learning a language. I do feel like I have a very, very biased POV tonight, but I also am weighing/assessing/deeply considering pursuing Japanese further than this semester.
But I'm also going to make the decision myself, and either way, I'm not dropping the class mid-semester.
I mostly just want to whine about this here for a couple minutes so I can get this out of my system and then finish my homework.
It's just hard. And it makes me feel stupid. And I don't like feeling stupid. And I don't know why more of it doesn't stick in my head. And I could be a better student, I could always be a better student, but I also don't feel like I'm a shitty enough student to warrant how much I suck at this class.
Okay.
There's that.
Now back to what I need to do.