Instructions ; Jaebum/unspecified 2PM member
Because I love 2PM and that's not going to change ♥ For Jaebum, please know that you are loved.
Title: Instructions
Rating: PG-13
Fandom: 2PM
Pairing(s): Jaebum/unspecified 2PM member
Word count: 413
Disclaimer: This is only fiction.
Summary: There are no instructions teaching you to forget, to let go, to fix things that have fallen apart so badly.
instructions
You turn your face sideways, press your nose against his cheek, hold him close. He smells like a mixture of sweat, tears and regret. You press closer, your lips graze the skin of his jaw and you say it will be fine and it's almost like a kiss. You want to kiss him, but it would just make things worse.
He doesn't hug you back, but he doesn't push you away either.
You hold him. Keep on holding him because it's the only thing you know how to do. It's the first time something like this has happened and no one has ever taught you what to do.
There are no instructions or step-by-step directions teaching you to forget, to let go, to fix things that have fallen apart so badly.
You wonder how he'll respond if you tell you love him. You weigh the words on your tongue, and that's when the pain strikes. You stagger backwards and he stares at you in shock. You lift one trembling hand to where ache blossoms. Oh, that treacherous heart, you think bitterly.
His lips are moving and he's saying something but you can't hear a word.
He takes your hand.
It's that gesture - and not that terrible heartache - that makes you cry. He squeezes your hand tightly, and with his other hand, he jerks your head downwards, brings his mouth to your right ear and says goodbye.
You don't think about how the group is going to continue without him. You don't think about your career. You don't think about the future. There's no room for such thoughts, the memories won't let them in. The memories won't even let you breathe. They come in waves, filling the room and closing in mercilessly, forcibly pushing you towards him.
He is warm against you.
Suddenly, he pulls away and walks out of the room, leaving you to fight the memories alone.
You haven't told him that you love him, you haven't told him that it's just not right without him, you haven't told him that you need him, but you can wait. Maybe it'll be months, or years before the time comes, but you can wait. You love him, and that's not going to change any time soon. You have all the time in the world.
You'll meet him again - your heart will find a way. You won't need any directions, maps or instructions because love, like gravity, will pull you to him.
MASTERLIST OF FICS HERE
Title: Instructions
Rating: PG-13
Fandom: 2PM
Pairing(s): Jaebum/unspecified 2PM member
Word count: 413
Disclaimer: This is only fiction.
Summary: There are no instructions teaching you to forget, to let go, to fix things that have fallen apart so badly.
instructions
You turn your face sideways, press your nose against his cheek, hold him close. He smells like a mixture of sweat, tears and regret. You press closer, your lips graze the skin of his jaw and you say it will be fine and it's almost like a kiss. You want to kiss him, but it would just make things worse.
He doesn't hug you back, but he doesn't push you away either.
You hold him. Keep on holding him because it's the only thing you know how to do. It's the first time something like this has happened and no one has ever taught you what to do.
There are no instructions or step-by-step directions teaching you to forget, to let go, to fix things that have fallen apart so badly.
You wonder how he'll respond if you tell you love him. You weigh the words on your tongue, and that's when the pain strikes. You stagger backwards and he stares at you in shock. You lift one trembling hand to where ache blossoms. Oh, that treacherous heart, you think bitterly.
His lips are moving and he's saying something but you can't hear a word.
He takes your hand.
It's that gesture - and not that terrible heartache - that makes you cry. He squeezes your hand tightly, and with his other hand, he jerks your head downwards, brings his mouth to your right ear and says goodbye.
You don't think about how the group is going to continue without him. You don't think about your career. You don't think about the future. There's no room for such thoughts, the memories won't let them in. The memories won't even let you breathe. They come in waves, filling the room and closing in mercilessly, forcibly pushing you towards him.
He is warm against you.
Suddenly, he pulls away and walks out of the room, leaving you to fight the memories alone.
You haven't told him that you love him, you haven't told him that it's just not right without him, you haven't told him that you need him, but you can wait. Maybe it'll be months, or years before the time comes, but you can wait. You love him, and that's not going to change any time soon. You have all the time in the world.
You'll meet him again - your heart will find a way. You won't need any directions, maps or instructions because love, like gravity, will pull you to him.
MASTERLIST OF FICS HERE