i miss....

[inlove87]

alot of things have happened ive find myself becoming sad andre breaking up with me just crushed the shit out of my life i find myself running from a guy i really like and it scares me maybe it just isnt the right time to start seeing people again but i need to get over him some how but there will always be a place in my heart for him i miss the

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[wordsnotspoken]

Nope. No grudge. I didn't even have one. And I'm not even mad at you. And I wish we could be friends, but I'm having a really hard time saying things and being myself around you. As much as a queer that makes me to say that, since I so much like to seem like a hardass, it's true. It's just there was alot of conflict between you and I that maybe you didn't notice. I don't know. Maybe what I was seeing was the real you...maybe it wasn't. And the tension I was feeling didn't really have anything to do with me. It had all to do with you and Nikki and your 2nd grade attitudes towards eachother. yeah, she can be a bitch and yeah not even I like her or get along with her, but I tried because I had to. And you know, I just got tired of both of you playing games. Not coming over when Nikki was here, or being a total bitch about it. You both have told me, oh it's over, I just wish she'd drop it bullshit. And you know what? Neither one of you have dropped anything. Yeah, Nikki needs to shut the fuck up, but you didn't need to just stop coming

sorry

[inlove87]

well i dont know what to say about that but im really glad that you expressed all that yea i let nikki come in the way of our friendship but i didnt really want to i always would pass by or look down to your house and want to come say hi but the truth was that i was stupid i did let her win your right but what could i do but sit there and be second place to your brother i alway thought that i would be second place to your family now and that hurt alot i love your family with all my heart and they will always be like family to me but the fact that nikki thinks she has competition around me is bullshit because if she doesnt see that she has won then shes stupid and no matter what to her this little stupid childish games that both me and her play will never be over because she thinks she has competition and she doesnt i dont understand your brother anymore like i thought i did he will always have a special place in my heart the real mike not the mike he is when he is around her and i understand that all of this is stupid but it would

Re: sorry

[wordsnotspoken]

Don't worry, love. No need to apologize. I understand. And I just needed to get all that off my chest so you and I could hopefully start clean again. It's really weird that you mention being second place to my brother and my family, because that's the same way Nikki makes me feel. My brother doesn't hardly ever talk to me anymore, we don't ever hang out, and my family is always cooking for her and washing her clothes and stuff...It's weird and I absolutely hate it. I know her mom hardly does anything for her, but I mean. I feel like she's part of the family and I've just been pushed aside, so I know how it feels. No, it doesn't sound stupid. It's very much real and sincere. And I understand. Honestly I do. I'm just worried that you and I are going to hang out one day and we won't be the same. We won't be the friends that we were. And I know I can't make anything between you and my brother better or I can't control Nikki and make her be nice, if it would help at all. I was talking to Chad and he's like, you guys would still get along,

Re: sorry

[inlove87]

this is my fault not yours and im really sorry that nikki has taken your place thats hellla fucked and your right nothing can change that im really sorry that you and your brother hardly talk that must be even harder on you cause he is your family we should hang out and yeah people change but there wont be anything that could keep us from being friends ever