From the time I was four till I was 18 I was and athlete. Not an exerciser, or someone who worked out, but someone who played games and tried to win. Know, I'm not saying that I was a good athlete, I was a decent swimmer and a shitty soccer, but that wasn't what mattered. What mattered was the competition. I grew up working out in practice. ( Read more... )

What is it about boredom that makes me want to b/p? I don't want to do the things I have to do so instead I start to eat everything, which will lead to a purge, which will lead to me feeling like shit, which will lead to work not getting done becuase, well, who wants to work when they feel like shit ( Read more... )

I wake up this morning to find my body aching, every muscle from my head to my toes screaming in agony at the thought of being moved. I deep pain in my thighs makes standing difficult, and the thought of stairs a nightmare. It is a wonderful feeling. It is a pain of a body being used. Not pain from illness or abuse, but from pushing the body to ( Read more... )

I want to go somewhere, anywhere, someplace new. Try something I've never tried before. It's strange, I really do love this place. Where I am now. But I just got inspired, it's reminded me, I can go anywhere. I want to go to Europe, I want to go to Asia, I want to just become the traveling teacher, every couple of years try a new and more ( Read more... )

How's this for interesting? The Hawaiian islands are under a winter strom advisory. Now, I may have been freezing my ass off when it dropped into the 60's today but thats not exactly winter conditions in my mind. We are supposed to get slamed by huge amounts of rain and 30mi/hr winds. Everbody send hope that it'll hit early enough to call off

Will someone please explain to me why it's 11:30 on Friday night and I've spent most of the evening responding to students journals. I need to get me a life. Or a less stressful job. Anybody need a full time window cleaner. I think I could do that very well. Nice, relaxing, good hours. Sounds right to me. 3 more weeks till break. I can ( Read more... )

this evening as i tried to make some instant soup i managed to pour boiling water all over my left hand. despite the fact that i put it in lukewarm/cold water almost immediately and kept it there for several hours i have the sneaking suspicion that i will wake up tomorrow morning with blisters covering my hands. god only know how i will explain ( Read more... )

I've spent a good portion of the last 2 days p/bing. I hate when I do that. I hate how after starting its so hard to stop. I just want to keep on eating and eating, after all, I don't have to keep it down ( Read more... )

I think I feel positive change coming ahead, I'm nervous though, many times in the past 10 months I've thought that things are getting better, only to come crashing down again. 2 weeks ago I just about hit bottom, I spent the better part of a week in tears, almost broke down at work multiple times. And decided in a fit of depression that I needed ( Read more... )

today i spent an ho.ur and a half on the phone with a friend to come to one conclusion. I am sad. I already knew this though ( Read more... )