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Feb 09, 2009 14:53

man. i'm so unbelievably fucking depressed now. i really really really really REALLY shouldn't have read those emails ( Read more... )

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opheliadances February 9 2009, 20:26:00 UTC
I dont think it's age or marriage, because I am decidedly NOT married and I know exactly what you mean. I think it's monotony. You get into this routine as you settle down a bit and it starts to monopolize your whole life. I have to get up and go to work because I have bills to pay, I have to get up and feed the kids and go to the store to buy food to feed the kids.... It's so cyclical that you start to feel like a cog in a machine and not the conductor any more.

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inniu February 10 2009, 00:49:22 UTC
seriously, seriously, seriously. you are SO fucking right.

and i have no idea how to get out of it.

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inniu February 10 2009, 00:49:54 UTC
alright, i'm a total liar. i have some ideas - i'm obviously just lazy. damnit!

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opheliadances February 10 2009, 04:06:43 UTC
You have to do something that you normally wouldnt. This past summer, a couple of friends and I got dressed up, I'm talking heels, dress, jheri-rigged victory rolls and went to a posh restaurant. And then we went bowling in a bowling alley that didnt have any lights on in the ladie's room, and it was probably a mercy. I felt good, better than I had in a long time because it was a connection to my old life and out of character for my current life. Go to a store that you've driven by a hundred times and never went in. It's the feeling of adventure that you miss, because you've had so many experiences. But you havent had them all. I'm not saying that you have to drive through a crack neighborhood with John Denver on the radio (unless you're me, which you clearly aren't...and besides, I moved into that neighborhood, haha) but do something that reconnects you with the unknown.

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