Borderline Chapter 8
Title: Borderline
Disclaimer: I didn't own anything except for the plot
Characters: Inoo, Yabu, Yaotome
Genre: fantasy, romance
Summary: Borderline is a moment in time where wishes are granted but with a equivalent compensation.
Author's Note: I posted this in one of my journal before but i wanted to post it again here... so enjoy readingXD
Borderline
-Chapter 8-
January 18, 2007; 19:50
Without hesitation Kei got out of the lodge wearing his thick coat and a flashlight with him to search in that strong blizzard. In his thought he knows that it is impossible to go on further but there is an urge on him that he wanted to meet Kota and talk to him. But most of all he wanted to see him if it will be the last time that they can be together. He wonder if he is already gone coz his wish to go to Hokkaido was finally fulfilled but is it as easy like that? Will he not say goodbye to him?
He can feel the freezing cold on his body all through his bones but still despite of zero visibility he is still hoping that he can see Kota. He saw that shadow and he is sure that it was Kota and to meet him he just need to follow it.
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January 18, 2007; 20:00
Kei continue to search for Kota amidst that strong blizzard. He called his name but no one is answering him back. He is having a hard time to breathe and he feels that his body is weaken because of the affect of the cold weather. He fall down for the first time but he immediately get on his feet but just a few distance he fall down again and he feels his body being numb that he can't stand anymore. He feels stupid for chasing after a ghost, he can describe himself as stupid coz even he knows that reality that Kota is just a ghost he is still running after him, searching for him even it means danger to his own self. That is the first time that he feel sacrificing something just to gain something.
He close his eyes and then remembered that he is just in a dream and realizing that it just makes it painful to him. If It is just a dream then that means that Kota doesn't really exist and he is just a part of this stupid dream given to him by the Dream Master. It's pain him coz there is part of himself that now acknowledge that he didn't want this to be just a dream but he wanted it to be reality. He hopes that Kota can be real.
He opens his eyes and then he saw a shadow coming from his direction, he is not sure who it is but nonetheless he doesn't care anymore coz he will die... Stupidly.
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January 18, 2007; 22:36
"H...his awake."Hikaru said and that is the first sentence that Kei heard upon opening his eyes. He blinked again and the visions in front of him became clearer than it used to be. He stand up and then stare at everyone who is inside the room and then he saw Kota also looking at him who is standing among the crowd. He was surprised but also he feels relief that he is still there and didn't go to heaven yet. He look at Hikaru and he saw that his right cheeks is swollen like it was punch hard then he look at Kota who has the same mark as well.
When Kei wakes up the manager of the lodge calms down and then they leave the two alone to the room.
"That was reckless you stupid. Do you really want to die at this young age?" Hikaru told him madly. "Somehow i didn't know you anymore. You used to be someone who thinks before he acts but now you are doing things recklessly. How will i explained this to your parents if you die here when we are in Hokkaido? DO you want to burden me once you leave?"
"You don't need to be mad i am alive right." Kei answered back as if he is not affected by Hikaru's words but honestly it is true and he was sorry about what he did but still he doesn't regret it at all and there is no way he can say that to Hikaru. Silence filled the room and it is awkward. Besides after the confession that Hikaru just did he feels that he can't stand being alone with Kei at this very moment. He stand up from his seat and said that he will buy some drinks and food for them.
And now Kota and Kei are left alone together. Kota flied near Kei and asked if he is already alright and also he said sorry because of leaving without permission that leads to Kei going outside and search for him. While saying those words tears start to flow from Kota's eyes that didn't surprised Kei anymore coz he knows that Kota is a cry baby after all. "I told you... It's not your fault. Stop blaming yourself for everything."
"B...but... I can't help it." Kota cried. "You are so nice to me, you accepted me even i am like this but i just bring you nothing but misfortune. That time in the temple and then now... Everything is my fault so... So... I'm really sorry Inoo-san."
"Is that the reason why you are avoiding me?"
Kota was startled, so Kei noticed it. "Lately i have this feeling that i don't want to go to heaven anymore, i...i don't want to be separated to you i want to stay forever with you but i know its impossible. It's impossible for me to stay forever with you. I am just a ghost, a spirit bound to be invincible and alone. But you don't need to worry, i...i accepted it already. Now i am ready to go to heaven anytime. I know what a limitations a ghost like me should have. So for now until my last day i will stay with your side and then i will do everything so i don't feel regret if i am in heaven already. I... Promise i will not be a burden anymore. So please until the last day came.... Stay with me a little longer." Kota explained and then he nodded his head.
Kei wanted to touch Kota, he want to feel that he exist but he knows its impossible. It is not only Kota who feels that way, he himself feel that he wanted to stay with Kota forever but he knows it well that its impossible too not because he is a ghost it is because he doesn't exist ... He is just a dream. "Alright... Then can you do me a favour. If the door opens for you to go to heaven let me say a proper goodbye, don't just vanish without saying anything at all. Besides... You should also know to say a proper thank you to someone who help you right?"
When could that be happen? When will i say goodbye to him and him say thank you for me. Let me stay here longer... Please let me stay with Kota longer.
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January 19, 2007; 09:10
"So i was lost." Kei whispered, starring at the whole place where he is standing that time. "Those bastards... Going on their own way." He murmured. He is sure he is with Hikaru and Kota a while back but when he look again they are not there anymore. They got separated coz the two loves looking from everything that attracts their attention and they have opposite likes and so he didn't know where to go and he separated himself for a while but now he didn't know where did they go. He called Hikaru's phone and he said that they are also looking after him and said that he should wait and they will going to pick him up.
Kei didn't know where he is but it seems like a small village which is really peaceful. He pass through a house and then saw the residence and it was Yabu. Just after reading someone went out of the door and he is surprised who it is. It was Kou who is running through the gate who seems surprised as well when he saw Kei standing outside. "Inoo-san, w...what are you doing here?" he asked.
"Nothing just wandering around." He lied. "Is this where you are living?"
Kou nodded his head. "this is the house of my late grandma that i told you when we are in the train. I...i'm about to go to the garden do you want to come with me. Eh? Are you not with Yaotome--san?"
"He just bought something he will be back right away but i don't mind going with you." he answered but of course he lied about Hikaru's situation too. The two of them went to the garden where fruits and vegetables are planted. There are apples trees and lots of vegetable crops. Kou went there to check the situation of the vegetation since he will go back to Tokyo again and his uncle is left to check on it. While Kei watch Kou do the stuffs he saw someone familiar again walking by the main road. He excuse himself for a while to Kou and then approach Shayna Nami, the blind lady they meet in the shrine in New Year.
"I am not expecting i can meet you here Inoo-san" Shayna said. "I am here together with my fiancée for a little vacation but we will be back on Tokyo on February." she explained.
"this place is so peaceful, sometimes i am looking for this kind of place in the busy world of Tokyo."
"Inoo-san there is one important thing i wanted to tell you about the Borderline that i didn't told you a while back." she said. "I thought this can affect you so much so i didn't mention it but if you didn't know about it i think it can affect you more."
"What is it?"
"When you enter Borderline it requires compensation. It's like equivalent rate, what you gain you must pay for it. Like I told you in that new year, my questions are been answered and finally I have a glimpse of the parents that brought me to life. After that my sight suddenly vanished and now I can't see anymore. Ones you seek an answer to your question something will be gone to you."
"You mean when this is over i....i will loss something?"
" Definitely but its something you didn't know until you realizes it. I'm telling these so that you can be prepared of what will happen. But I hope you happiness and enjoyment in your life."
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January 19, 2007 ; 9:30
"I don't understand it." Kei murmured. "Why do i need to sacrifice when i don't need this at all? I'm okay living my life as it was. I don't want to loss anything just because i entered this crappy world of dreams."
"This is not a dream Inoo-san."
"It is... This is my dream. A dream which i cannot control on my own."
This is pathetic, i am being work up by just thinking I'm going to loss something just because i entered this world. I didn't asked for this, i don't need Borderline at all. I don't even know why the hell i am here? What i really wanted to know? I don't want to loss anything... I don't want to loss anything but it is not the point right Kei Inoo? It is not because of the compensation but it is the truth that if you not enter this world you will not meet Kota and you will not feel that you wanted this to take longer. Why don't you wake up already... Kota is not real he doesn't exist and so you should stop whatever feelings you have for him or else in the end you will going to be hurt like those people in the drama.
"I...I'm going." Kei stammered. "You should go back to your house it's getting cold here already."
"Inoo-san you don't need to be afraid, believe me and then believe on yourself." Nami added to her advices. Kei goes back to where Kou is and he saw him climbing up a tree. He smiled when he saw Kei down and he said that he should climb too but he never tried climbing a tree before coz he thinks that it is dangerous. But Kou smiled and assured him that everything's gonna be fine. He help Kei to climb up, they even hold hands with each other until Kei reach the branch where Kou is standing.
"This place really didn't fail to amused me." Kou whispered which Kei clearly hear but he noticed that Kei seems down and not looking on the view. "What's wrong Inoo-san? Have a problem?"
"I just realized that even i am genus there are still things that i can't do on my own and there are things that i am afraid that it will happen."
"What do you mean?"
"I can't believe myself either... I feel pathetic for the first time i feel bad about myself." Kei whispered and then he sit down on that branch and start wiping his eyes which make Kou conclude that Kei was crying. The two went down the tree and Kei sit down near the trunks and he didn't want other people to see him crying, he doesn't want anyone to see his weak side and besides that was the first time that he burst out his feelings, the first time he cried after long long years. "I... Wish this is not a dream... I wish this is all true. I wish that he existed. i....i never felt this happy before and this is one thing i am really looking for but if this is just a dream... If... If this is not true.... How disappointing was that. I... I don't want to wake up anymore."
"Look at me Inoo-san." Kou whispered on him. Kei slowly lift up his face and then Kou saw Kei's crying face and then he smiled he touch Kei's cheeks and then all of a sudden he pinch it making Kei shout in pain. He is about to get mad but when he saw Kou's smile he feels petrified. "It hurts right? So this is not a dream at all... What you see are all real."
Kei realizes that Kou wanted to cheer him up and it actually helps though still he believes that was is happening is still a dream. He wipes his tears away and then touch Kou's cheeks and then pinch it as well. His cheeks is hurting because of the pain of the cheeks and he can't accept it when he didn't do the same thing. After few minutes, Hikaru and Kota came to pick him up. He get mad at the two but after that he already calmed down and said goodbye to Kou.
Disclaimer: I didn't own anything except for the plot
Characters: Inoo, Yabu, Yaotome
Genre: fantasy, romance
Summary: Borderline is a moment in time where wishes are granted but with a equivalent compensation.
Author's Note: I posted this in one of my journal before but i wanted to post it again here... so enjoy readingXD
Borderline
-Chapter 8-
January 18, 2007; 19:50
Without hesitation Kei got out of the lodge wearing his thick coat and a flashlight with him to search in that strong blizzard. In his thought he knows that it is impossible to go on further but there is an urge on him that he wanted to meet Kota and talk to him. But most of all he wanted to see him if it will be the last time that they can be together. He wonder if he is already gone coz his wish to go to Hokkaido was finally fulfilled but is it as easy like that? Will he not say goodbye to him?
He can feel the freezing cold on his body all through his bones but still despite of zero visibility he is still hoping that he can see Kota. He saw that shadow and he is sure that it was Kota and to meet him he just need to follow it.
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January 18, 2007; 20:00
Kei continue to search for Kota amidst that strong blizzard. He called his name but no one is answering him back. He is having a hard time to breathe and he feels that his body is weaken because of the affect of the cold weather. He fall down for the first time but he immediately get on his feet but just a few distance he fall down again and he feels his body being numb that he can't stand anymore. He feels stupid for chasing after a ghost, he can describe himself as stupid coz even he knows that reality that Kota is just a ghost he is still running after him, searching for him even it means danger to his own self. That is the first time that he feel sacrificing something just to gain something.
He close his eyes and then remembered that he is just in a dream and realizing that it just makes it painful to him. If It is just a dream then that means that Kota doesn't really exist and he is just a part of this stupid dream given to him by the Dream Master. It's pain him coz there is part of himself that now acknowledge that he didn't want this to be just a dream but he wanted it to be reality. He hopes that Kota can be real.
He opens his eyes and then he saw a shadow coming from his direction, he is not sure who it is but nonetheless he doesn't care anymore coz he will die... Stupidly.
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January 18, 2007; 22:36
"H...his awake."Hikaru said and that is the first sentence that Kei heard upon opening his eyes. He blinked again and the visions in front of him became clearer than it used to be. He stand up and then stare at everyone who is inside the room and then he saw Kota also looking at him who is standing among the crowd. He was surprised but also he feels relief that he is still there and didn't go to heaven yet. He look at Hikaru and he saw that his right cheeks is swollen like it was punch hard then he look at Kota who has the same mark as well.
When Kei wakes up the manager of the lodge calms down and then they leave the two alone to the room.
"That was reckless you stupid. Do you really want to die at this young age?" Hikaru told him madly. "Somehow i didn't know you anymore. You used to be someone who thinks before he acts but now you are doing things recklessly. How will i explained this to your parents if you die here when we are in Hokkaido? DO you want to burden me once you leave?"
"You don't need to be mad i am alive right." Kei answered back as if he is not affected by Hikaru's words but honestly it is true and he was sorry about what he did but still he doesn't regret it at all and there is no way he can say that to Hikaru. Silence filled the room and it is awkward. Besides after the confession that Hikaru just did he feels that he can't stand being alone with Kei at this very moment. He stand up from his seat and said that he will buy some drinks and food for them.
And now Kota and Kei are left alone together. Kota flied near Kei and asked if he is already alright and also he said sorry because of leaving without permission that leads to Kei going outside and search for him. While saying those words tears start to flow from Kota's eyes that didn't surprised Kei anymore coz he knows that Kota is a cry baby after all. "I told you... It's not your fault. Stop blaming yourself for everything."
"B...but... I can't help it." Kota cried. "You are so nice to me, you accepted me even i am like this but i just bring you nothing but misfortune. That time in the temple and then now... Everything is my fault so... So... I'm really sorry Inoo-san."
"Is that the reason why you are avoiding me?"
Kota was startled, so Kei noticed it. "Lately i have this feeling that i don't want to go to heaven anymore, i...i don't want to be separated to you i want to stay forever with you but i know its impossible. It's impossible for me to stay forever with you. I am just a ghost, a spirit bound to be invincible and alone. But you don't need to worry, i...i accepted it already. Now i am ready to go to heaven anytime. I know what a limitations a ghost like me should have. So for now until my last day i will stay with your side and then i will do everything so i don't feel regret if i am in heaven already. I... Promise i will not be a burden anymore. So please until the last day came.... Stay with me a little longer." Kota explained and then he nodded his head.
Kei wanted to touch Kota, he want to feel that he exist but he knows its impossible. It is not only Kota who feels that way, he himself feel that he wanted to stay with Kota forever but he knows it well that its impossible too not because he is a ghost it is because he doesn't exist ... He is just a dream. "Alright... Then can you do me a favour. If the door opens for you to go to heaven let me say a proper goodbye, don't just vanish without saying anything at all. Besides... You should also know to say a proper thank you to someone who help you right?"
When could that be happen? When will i say goodbye to him and him say thank you for me. Let me stay here longer... Please let me stay with Kota longer.
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January 19, 2007; 09:10
"So i was lost." Kei whispered, starring at the whole place where he is standing that time. "Those bastards... Going on their own way." He murmured. He is sure he is with Hikaru and Kota a while back but when he look again they are not there anymore. They got separated coz the two loves looking from everything that attracts their attention and they have opposite likes and so he didn't know where to go and he separated himself for a while but now he didn't know where did they go. He called Hikaru's phone and he said that they are also looking after him and said that he should wait and they will going to pick him up.
Kei didn't know where he is but it seems like a small village which is really peaceful. He pass through a house and then saw the residence and it was Yabu. Just after reading someone went out of the door and he is surprised who it is. It was Kou who is running through the gate who seems surprised as well when he saw Kei standing outside. "Inoo-san, w...what are you doing here?" he asked.
"Nothing just wandering around." He lied. "Is this where you are living?"
Kou nodded his head. "this is the house of my late grandma that i told you when we are in the train. I...i'm about to go to the garden do you want to come with me. Eh? Are you not with Yaotome--san?"
"He just bought something he will be back right away but i don't mind going with you." he answered but of course he lied about Hikaru's situation too. The two of them went to the garden where fruits and vegetables are planted. There are apples trees and lots of vegetable crops. Kou went there to check the situation of the vegetation since he will go back to Tokyo again and his uncle is left to check on it. While Kei watch Kou do the stuffs he saw someone familiar again walking by the main road. He excuse himself for a while to Kou and then approach Shayna Nami, the blind lady they meet in the shrine in New Year.
"I am not expecting i can meet you here Inoo-san" Shayna said. "I am here together with my fiancée for a little vacation but we will be back on Tokyo on February." she explained.
"this place is so peaceful, sometimes i am looking for this kind of place in the busy world of Tokyo."
"Inoo-san there is one important thing i wanted to tell you about the Borderline that i didn't told you a while back." she said. "I thought this can affect you so much so i didn't mention it but if you didn't know about it i think it can affect you more."
"What is it?"
"When you enter Borderline it requires compensation. It's like equivalent rate, what you gain you must pay for it. Like I told you in that new year, my questions are been answered and finally I have a glimpse of the parents that brought me to life. After that my sight suddenly vanished and now I can't see anymore. Ones you seek an answer to your question something will be gone to you."
"You mean when this is over i....i will loss something?"
" Definitely but its something you didn't know until you realizes it. I'm telling these so that you can be prepared of what will happen. But I hope you happiness and enjoyment in your life."
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January 19, 2007 ; 9:30
"I don't understand it." Kei murmured. "Why do i need to sacrifice when i don't need this at all? I'm okay living my life as it was. I don't want to loss anything just because i entered this crappy world of dreams."
"This is not a dream Inoo-san."
"It is... This is my dream. A dream which i cannot control on my own."
This is pathetic, i am being work up by just thinking I'm going to loss something just because i entered this world. I didn't asked for this, i don't need Borderline at all. I don't even know why the hell i am here? What i really wanted to know? I don't want to loss anything... I don't want to loss anything but it is not the point right Kei Inoo? It is not because of the compensation but it is the truth that if you not enter this world you will not meet Kota and you will not feel that you wanted this to take longer. Why don't you wake up already... Kota is not real he doesn't exist and so you should stop whatever feelings you have for him or else in the end you will going to be hurt like those people in the drama.
"I...I'm going." Kei stammered. "You should go back to your house it's getting cold here already."
"Inoo-san you don't need to be afraid, believe me and then believe on yourself." Nami added to her advices. Kei goes back to where Kou is and he saw him climbing up a tree. He smiled when he saw Kei down and he said that he should climb too but he never tried climbing a tree before coz he thinks that it is dangerous. But Kou smiled and assured him that everything's gonna be fine. He help Kei to climb up, they even hold hands with each other until Kei reach the branch where Kou is standing.
"This place really didn't fail to amused me." Kou whispered which Kei clearly hear but he noticed that Kei seems down and not looking on the view. "What's wrong Inoo-san? Have a problem?"
"I just realized that even i am genus there are still things that i can't do on my own and there are things that i am afraid that it will happen."
"What do you mean?"
"I can't believe myself either... I feel pathetic for the first time i feel bad about myself." Kei whispered and then he sit down on that branch and start wiping his eyes which make Kou conclude that Kei was crying. The two went down the tree and Kei sit down near the trunks and he didn't want other people to see him crying, he doesn't want anyone to see his weak side and besides that was the first time that he burst out his feelings, the first time he cried after long long years. "I... Wish this is not a dream... I wish this is all true. I wish that he existed. i....i never felt this happy before and this is one thing i am really looking for but if this is just a dream... If... If this is not true.... How disappointing was that. I... I don't want to wake up anymore."
"Look at me Inoo-san." Kou whispered on him. Kei slowly lift up his face and then Kou saw Kei's crying face and then he smiled he touch Kei's cheeks and then all of a sudden he pinch it making Kei shout in pain. He is about to get mad but when he saw Kou's smile he feels petrified. "It hurts right? So this is not a dream at all... What you see are all real."
Kei realizes that Kou wanted to cheer him up and it actually helps though still he believes that was is happening is still a dream. He wipes his tears away and then touch Kou's cheeks and then pinch it as well. His cheeks is hurting because of the pain of the cheeks and he can't accept it when he didn't do the same thing. After few minutes, Hikaru and Kota came to pick him up. He get mad at the two but after that he already calmed down and said goodbye to Kou.