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I've been so unsure about how to tell Sae about the baby, and maybe I chose the wrong way when he returned. Should I have waited? And if I had would it have been better?
I feel like I could have done it in a better way, but when he knelt in front of me just after coming through the door, started petting my stomach, and talking to the baby I knew I couldn't wait any longer.
I had already waited. I knew his time with his family and friends is important to him, so I didn't want to deliver the news while he was away. I also didn't want to say it over the phone, but needed to tell him in person.
I wonder if he blames me.
I do.
It's my fault.