Fly Away Oneshot Yoosu
Title: Fly away
Rating: PG-13?
Genre: Angst
Length: Oneshot
Disclaimer: I am asking for Yoochun for my christmas, and Junsu for my birthday. I hope I have been good enough 8D
Summary: Junsu can't take it anymore.
There he was again, sitting on the window seat, staring out the window watching the birds fly by. This is how it had been for the last few months. It was early morning, and there was no sign of Yoochun throughout the night. When he first found out, he had wanted to run away, far away, scream, kick, punch, yell, do anything, but then he realized he had no where else to go.
One day we will be happy together again, right?
He felt so trapped, ashamed, unworthy. He knew that his friends were beginning to worry, so he decided he could trust them enough and explained to them what had happened.
"Junsu, what's been wrong with you recently?"
The boy sat there thinking of how to explain, he couldn’t lie to his best friends. They sat in silence for what seemed like forever, until Junsu finally spoke.
“Yoochun-ah… loves someone else.” His voice cracked and his tears that he tried so hard to hide, escaped and stained his cheeks. His friends huddled around the broken boy and embraced him in a hug; they knew how much Junsu must be hurting. After all he gave up everything to be with Yoochun.
Junsu let out a cold laugh. “It’s been six months since then…” he laughed some more trying to make the throbbing residing in his heart go away. The only reason he had stayed was because he knews deep down, Yoochun still has even the tinyest bit of love for him yet. If he hadn't he would have made Junsu leave, right?
But that wasn’t the only reason Junsu had stayed. He had nowhere else to go if he left Yoochun. He had given up his family to be with the man who took his heart. His parents had disapproved of their relationship, and his brother was disgusted with the thought of having a gay brother. He sat there as he remembered the now broken promises that Yoochun had made to him.
I’ll stay by your side forever baby.
Don’t worry you don’t need them; I will be your family from now on.
I love you, and only you.
He wanted to cry, he wanted to scream, but there is nothing else to cry about, instead the pain began to eat him alive. He glanced at the clock on the end table by their bed. “6:45am”
“He’ll be home soon.” He mumbled to himself. He left his spot by the window to crawl into the bed, and wait for the arms that would make him feel nothing more than emptiness. Soon he heard the sound of the door unlocking, and footsteps heading toward the bedroom.
Then he felt the bed dip behind him and he knew it was him.
“Junsu-ah~ I’m home.” His lover greeted with a smile. He loved that smiled, and he could never get tired of looking at it.
“Mmm.” Is all he gave as a reply, as he was laying still faced away from his lover. He felt small kisses along the nape of his neck, and he knew where this was going, but didn’t even bother to try to stop it. He turned over so he was lying on his back, since he knew that is what Yoochun was waiting for.
He felt the lips of his lover’s moving against his own, he slowly kissed back. Yoochun nibbled on his lip asking for entrance which was granted. Junsu let his lover explore his mouth and body as always, and before he knew it they were both completely naked. Without any preparation, not that he really needed it , Yoochun rammed his cock in to Junsu’s awaiting entrance, and started thrusting, quick and fast. There was no noise from Junsu, no screaming, no moaning, he was completely numb. He could barely feel his lover ramming into him over and over again. Harder each time, Yoochun was moaning, but it broke Junsu’s already shattered heart because it wasn't his name spilling from those lips.
“Ahhh~ JaeJoong! I’m… ah.” And he came inside of Junsu, who was still hard. Yoochun pulled out and stroked his lover’s cock until he too released, still making no noise. Yoochun smiled and kissed Junsu’s forehead. “I love you, Su-ah” he said as he pulled him into an embrace and fell asleep.
The boy being held could not fall asleep, he was always sleeping, all day. He stared at the face of the one he loved, the one he gave up everything for, and being in those arms he felt so trapped, so pathetic, but most of all he felt the throbbing pain in his chest. He untangled himself from Yoochun and grabbed a piece of paper and began writing.
He walked to the bathroom, and looked at himself in the mirror. He was merely all bones. His once chubby cheeks were sucked in he didn’t even look the same. He laughed bitterly at himself. That’s when the throbbing in his chest came back. He opened the medicine cabinet, and found the high dose of painkillers he was prescribed when he had broken his ribs. He poured the contents of the bottle into his hands, and shoved them all into his mouth, and swallowed. He slowly made it back to the bed, still carrying the pill bottle in his hand, and tangled himself in the arms of his lover.
Yoochun, let's meet again, next time, okay?
Yoochun awoke the next day to see his lover sleeping in his arms which was rare because Junsu was always awake before him. He sighed contently; he missed the times like this. He looked at his lover, and realized his cheeks were all bone now. How could he have not realized the weight Junsu had lost? But the thing that he realized next scared him. He realized Junsu’s chest was not moving up and down, like it should when he breathes, and then as his eyes wondered over his lover’s body, he saw and empty pill bottle in his hand.
“Junsu-ah!!!” he screamed. No response. He shook his lover harshly. No response.
He grabbed Junsu’s wrist looking for a pulse, it wasn't there. He climbed of bed to call for help when he saw a piece of paper scribbled with Junsu's handwriting.
Yoochun-ah.
I can’t do this anymore, and I don’t have what it takes to keep going. I’m sorry I love you. I’m not mad at you… I just don’t want to be a burden to you. Now you will be able to live happily with Jaejoong, and not worry about me. Everything is so empty and dark. I can’t feel anything. I’m sorry Chunnie.I want to be with you, happily again Chunnie, maybe next time? Let's meet again, promise?
Saranghae.
SuSu.
A Tear fell and landed on the paper as Yoochun read it over and over again. “Junsu-ahhh! Im so sorry!” he sobbed, as he ran back to cradle the lifeless body of his lover. He cried more when he realized Jaejoong wasn't the one he loved. Junsu was.
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A/N: this came to me last night as I was trying to sleep, and wouldn't leave me alone, I kind of rushed it so I hope it isn't toooo bad D:. Comments are loved :D <3