Haven't had much to say in a while; not much to say right now either.

( secret )

Well then my birthdate suit is the atire choice of the day!

What can get you in a good mood you ask?

( I answer. )

SNOW DAY! That means no school! Which most people would be all excited about but it just means that I don't get to be loved at school and I'm going to be a lot more bored waiting to go to phils... But the snow is pretty, I love when it's snowing, everyone doesn't mind too much yet it's dark and cold, my favourite weather. I know, I know, I'm ( Read more... )

I know I'm not the only one out there. There's a lot of people that hate this season. Problems just seem that much worse when everyone else is showing off their happiness and their money. Turn yourself inwards. I know, I know, you're always concentrating on yourself. (That's what you think) You've watched and watched your problems until they ( Read more... )

WHEN I'M ANGRY IT MAKES ME SICK. IT MAKES ME FEEL THE EMOTIONS THAT WONT BECOME REAL. THE TEARS ARE NOT ALLOWED TO FALL AND PILLS SUCCUMB TO ANSWERS. tHAT TIME FALLS ON MY ACHING BODY AND WEARY I DRAG ON TO ANOTHER DAY. SO MUCH TIME AND SO MUCH PAIN.

Of the following list choose one of the choices that you think best represents me and tell me in a comment.

leader/follower

quiet/talkative

spontaneous/planned

dominant/submissive

logical/intuitive

social/loner

kinky/vanilla

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the aching in my chest, the pain in my chest will tell you it's more than just begun, we're past the start. moshing to my pain, shaking again, vibrating to my hate, nothing to debate, there's my future controlled by me and my fake fate. filled with your actions as i see you dance in the dark and my lightning crashes and my brain smashes against my ( Read more... )

It's starting to lessen. Learning the map of this pain. Never avoiding it though, always taking the brunt of it and killing myself over and over again so I can feel the pain abate. Yet along I must scream in my pain or hold it silently within me, and the longer it stays in the longer it is with me... Could I whisper it in your ear as you hold me ( Read more... )

FEELINGS ARE RUSHING