I may actually graduate. I just need to get a few more really important things done in the next couple of weeks then I'm gone ( Read more... )

He's next to me. I feel him. Every part of him.

He's beauty. He's perfect. He's mine.

I love him.

Last week Joyce was admitted to the hospital because she had an inflamed colon, and that same week I wasn't feeling very well so I stayed home from school and had my boyfriend (we'll talk about him in a second) Adaam call in and pretend to be my dad ( Read more... )

Who do I write for?

I realize I have a small audience that takes the time to read my angsty prose, written in the heat of the moment, but who am I writing for?

Who, but myself do I really want to read these words? Maybe I cant fully understand something until it's written down.

Maybe I use livejournal when I know that I need to tell myself something ( Read more... )

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 Today has been a hard day. Joyce and I had one of our really intense fights.

Then while looking for some music ot listen to I sort of came across tears in heaven and that's my song for my grandpa, and it's been awhile since I've cried. I think it's a combination of the prozac and me just being so busy, but I haven't had time to process my feelings ( Read more... )

I met a boy not too long ago.

We spent the day together today.

We layed on his bed and he gave me apart of himsef and I did the same.

He read to me his words which melted almost  mellifluously as he recited them.

Today has to have been a dream.....yea, that's it.... I'm dreaming

My head hurts. I just want to fall asleep. 

I just saw the movie Juno with Jeff and Jon and on the ride home  I started to think about what my world would be like if I just told everyone.

Any while I know myspace isn't everyone it's a lot of people in my life, and I just basically outed myself via myspace bulletin.... this is what it said.

I have no reason or rhyme as to why I've decided now ( Read more... )

 There's a war ragging inside of me ( Read more... )

I met a guy.... nevermind who. We had a date tonight and it was so....... cozy.

I could spend every day with him, just talking and cuddling. This is a bulletin I posted to my myspace that pretty much sums up the night and my feelings.

Perfection:

Fire place

Fine wine

Great tv shows

Cuddling

Getting to know him

and the perfect kiss.

Tonight was great. I just ( Read more... )