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I deleted my last post because it had no comments and I didn't want it up anymore. So I think I might do what Kurt did and make a cut rant post. Doubt it'll get read, but it helps me feel better to rant for awhile. *shrugs* Read if you want.
So yeah. I have been single for too long now. Most people give me the stupid bullshit speech. You know "you're better off without one. Guys aren't that good, anyways. Wait until you graduate." Well, you know what? I don't fucking want to wait. I like having a boyfriend and I despise being single. Not like.. I don't like being single. I despise it. I wish I never was. I wish I could find that person that really cares about me. Not like Adam, who just cared for what we did. He could give a shit about me. Especially after dating one of my best friends. He doesn't care for me.
I need to be able to drive. I am extremely sick of having to sit at home in front of the fucking computer while my friends that can drive go and DO something. I want to drive out and see Megan, or Kurt, or Mary, or Jack, or Zach. SOMEone. I am tired of my basement. And my room. This house, for that matter. I just want to get the hell out and hang out with friends.
I don't know why I still bother with this journal. I rarely get comments and they all usually say the same things. "Cool!" "Talk to you later!"... things like that. But I will continue, nonetheless. It's a good way to scare guys (lol Brad). Not too mention, I hate writing (as in, pencil paper writing -_-) so this is the only journal I would update. Whatever. I still won't get comments, but one does not recieve comments in paper journals, either. So why bitch?
I hate that every guy I actually LIKE lives atleast 2 states away. Kenny in Illinois, Edward in Georgia, TC in Ohio, Derek in England, and Kyle in California, to name SOME. Oh yeah.. Johnny and Francisco in Califronia, too. None of them could just live in Seattle. Nooo. They have to live 2 or more states away. That makes me feel very very lonely. Because it's the same the other way around. The only guys that like ME live 2 or more states away. Except for Brad.. but God knows that has yet to work. I wish it would because I really like Brad. I still think about him a lot. Move back!
I'm starting to feel better about this school, but I still hate it. Still a bunch of rich fucks complaining about things they don't have. I found out that my best friend from kindergarten sits in front of me in English. I don't think he remembers me. Which is fine either way because he is now Mr. All-American Football Star that's Republican and so anti-Democratic it sucks. Anna and Sara don't believe me that he was my best friend. If he cared, I'm sure he could tell them, but it might hurt his precious image.
So that is my rant. I realize that no one will read it, but I feel better now. So fuck off if you didn't. Don't even bother commenting if you didn't. Or if your comment will consist of 5 words or less. NOT counting your name. Thank you.
I realized that I have known Brian Reilly since the summer after his freshman year. He's a senior now. That's a long time to know someone and still talk to them. Brian is a cool kid. And I have known Kurt since he was a sevvie. He's a sophomore now. Wow. I feel old.
Ciao!
~~Berlin~~
So yeah. I have been single for too long now. Most people give me the stupid bullshit speech. You know "you're better off without one. Guys aren't that good, anyways. Wait until you graduate." Well, you know what? I don't fucking want to wait. I like having a boyfriend and I despise being single. Not like.. I don't like being single. I despise it. I wish I never was. I wish I could find that person that really cares about me. Not like Adam, who just cared for what we did. He could give a shit about me. Especially after dating one of my best friends. He doesn't care for me.
I need to be able to drive. I am extremely sick of having to sit at home in front of the fucking computer while my friends that can drive go and DO something. I want to drive out and see Megan, or Kurt, or Mary, or Jack, or Zach. SOMEone. I am tired of my basement. And my room. This house, for that matter. I just want to get the hell out and hang out with friends.
I don't know why I still bother with this journal. I rarely get comments and they all usually say the same things. "Cool!" "Talk to you later!"... things like that. But I will continue, nonetheless. It's a good way to scare guys (lol Brad). Not too mention, I hate writing (as in, pencil paper writing -_-) so this is the only journal I would update. Whatever. I still won't get comments, but one does not recieve comments in paper journals, either. So why bitch?
I hate that every guy I actually LIKE lives atleast 2 states away. Kenny in Illinois, Edward in Georgia, TC in Ohio, Derek in England, and Kyle in California, to name SOME. Oh yeah.. Johnny and Francisco in Califronia, too. None of them could just live in Seattle. Nooo. They have to live 2 or more states away. That makes me feel very very lonely. Because it's the same the other way around. The only guys that like ME live 2 or more states away. Except for Brad.. but God knows that has yet to work. I wish it would because I really like Brad. I still think about him a lot. Move back!
I'm starting to feel better about this school, but I still hate it. Still a bunch of rich fucks complaining about things they don't have. I found out that my best friend from kindergarten sits in front of me in English. I don't think he remembers me. Which is fine either way because he is now Mr. All-American Football Star that's Republican and so anti-Democratic it sucks. Anna and Sara don't believe me that he was my best friend. If he cared, I'm sure he could tell them, but it might hurt his precious image.
So that is my rant. I realize that no one will read it, but I feel better now. So fuck off if you didn't. Don't even bother commenting if you didn't. Or if your comment will consist of 5 words or less. NOT counting your name. Thank you.
I realized that I have known Brian Reilly since the summer after his freshman year. He's a senior now. That's a long time to know someone and still talk to them. Brian is a cool kid. And I have known Kurt since he was a sevvie. He's a sophomore now. Wow. I feel old.
Ciao!
~~Berlin~~