I desperately need health insurance. I'm scared shitless with what's going on with my body right now. A few days ago I noticed a lump in my colon and I haven't been breathing very well for the last month or so. No amount of albuterol is helping me. I've been throwing up a lot too. I haven't told anyone at all. I really can't even afford to see a ( Read more... )

I'm currently in Tucson visiting some friends. I was rewarded for my visit with a threesome. Before they leave, I walk outside to test both hotel keys to see if they are working so I can give my friend one for tomorrow. My hotel neighbor is on the patio talking on the phone and gives me a look of I heard you getting some over there. I ignore it, ( Read more... )

I hate dating. With a passion. I'm currently in a relationship with someone that is a FWB type, but only because she doesn't want a real relationship. Yet, other times she does. Tonight I was going to take her out, then she cancelled on me at the last minute because she had early plans with her roommates, then proceeded to be a bit standoffish for ( Read more... )

My good week continues. I was just offered a position directly with a company instead of through an agency. I was also offered two other positions through two different temp agencies which I will now have to turn down. I'll be doing tech support on computers and selling the software to fix the issue. It sounds like the most straight forward job ( Read more... )

What a great day I had today. It started out a bit shaky. I felt like I was getting sick, but turns out it really was lack of caffeine. I've discovered I may have not one, but three jobs to choose from that will all start next week. I won tickets to see Queensryche for tonight and also Soul Asylum tickets for Saturday. There is a chance I'll score ( Read more... )

I'm feeling a bit nostalgic today. There are so many people that I miss and want to see again. So many days I want to relive. So many things I want to make slight changes at to make my life amazing. I'm very lucky to have experienced the things in my life I've experienced, but I am not where I want to be. I miss the days of not worrying about the ( Read more... )

At what point in life is it OK to throw in the towel and say, well I did my best and my best wasn't good enough? How many times do you have to fail before people will just understand? When is it OK to eliminate yourself from the earth and people will realize that it was for the better? I'm not saying I want to die, but I am so tired of trying to ( Read more... )

If someone reaches out to you in several different medias because they are concerned about you, why the fuck would you ignore them only to answer when youre called out because it says the time you looked at the message. Fuck people who say they are your friends.

I really hate using this journal for the whoa is me shit, but that is usually what triggers my writing urge. I'm so sick of being broke all the time. I'm thinking of where I was at a year ago and I know I have more, but really I don't have shit. Actually, a year ago this week I had just came back to Colorado after my divorce. I had just found the ( Read more... )

I should be printing up my stuff and going to bed but my head is not right and I won't be able to sleep anyway. I called my Dad today for his birthday and found out that tomorrow he is going into a nursing home. He just can't get around well anymore and struggles to do things like climb a single stair. His wife really doesn't do shit for him either ( Read more... )