i'm taking this excommunication fairly well for having lost my best friend without even knowing why. maybe it just hasn't set in yet. or maybe i just can't stay mad at her. it's probably because of the nonstop string of drinking, socializing, playing music and singing loudly that has ensued since being ousted ( Read more... )

i don't even know what the fuck is going on

yesterday and today have been the best time i've had in this city. in light of everything this past year has brought me, i couldn't have asked for a better night.

hey ( Read more... )

you can fuckin push me around when i don't know what the fuck is going on because i dont understand spanish and i'm just going with the flow anyway ( Read more... )

when she sends me a text message, it evokes in my imagination a bright tone of voice, happy, a bit lively. she writes with smiley faces and exclamation points. then when one of us calls to respond, her voice is like she just woke up, she is annoyed, she is mad, or any combination of the above. and then follows a lifeless, mundane conversation, ( Read more... )

No, not "baby" anymore ( Read more... )

at night i dislike going to bed because it requires taking off my sexy clothes to reveal the not-so-sexy-ness hiding underneath. =]

you wanna know why i didn't invite you? cuz i really don't care. i don't care about this gig. i dont care about the people i invited. i'd rather the people i care about not care with me than be excited about something that i really don't give a shit about ( Read more... )

this is fuckin crazy. like being torn in various directions, quartered emotionally. when ive seen her lately, ive felt an instant longing, like a wild animal in a cage reminded of its once felt freedom. but it's also paired with resentment. not towards her, but a general feeling, maybe towards not getting my way. i feel i got the short end of the ( Read more... )