No Vacation, Short Course is in Due Session
Though I'm pretty sure my score in theory classes aren't so bad, yesterday my result in a practical class just failed.
Fumbled, flopped, flimsy FAILED.
Do allow me to yell out.
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Phew.
That reminds me, I've always had good scores on theoretical subjects, but it's not the same when on the field.
Yesterday was a perfect example.
I looked at each one of my classmates' finished products, and I can give the answer with no problem when someone asks about the process.
But comparing their displays with mine, the difference in quality was obvious to anyone.
Yep. Mine was one of the worst in the room.
Many had A's and B's. I got a C. Yay.
Moving right along. I found out that I flunked my studio class and I'll have to make it up through a short semester program.
I admit I was a bit stressed out at first.
I won't lie and say I'm not homesick. I am. I really miss my family. The last I saw them was last October, and from their phone calls, it really seems like the want me home as well.
But a good rest was all I needed to clear my head.
Now I can accept that going through this semester program is a lot better than failing college altogether.
This is also my last chance to continue my study.
So a note to myself:
Dear Me,
GET YOUR ACT STRAIGHT.
It's not your board, it's not your friends, it's not that you don't have the equipments or the money to buy tools, and it's not that your artworks are lousy even though you keep feeling they are.
It's YOU.
You're the problem. You're already 20, and if you don't start acting up, you're not gonna get anywhere and you'll continue to be stuck in the same rut you fell into last year and all you'll keep doing is wasting your parents' money.
Enough with the inferiority complex. Keep in mind that you're not being looked down upon constantly. You proved you were worthy of entering the art faculty, now show them that you're worthy of staying there.
So get to it or you'll stay on the bottom of the pit.
Sincerely,
Your Conscience
P.S. Quit ignoring me!!
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End note
Putting that aside, I'm thinking of getting a part-time job.
I'm already teaching little kids how to draw every Saturday.
I love working with them and getting them to express themselves through drawing. More often than not I end up being a "horsey/roller-coaster/cow" or have to play tag with them and chase them around class. But I'm not complaining. That's actually the fun part for me. :)
A friend of mine asked me if I want to try out for Starbucks, but you know about Starbucks and Israel... =/ NO, THANK YOU.
There is an ad about job recruitment for ticketing at a movie theater. Seems interesting, the pay seems good, now only if I fit the criteria "attractive". *Looks in the mirror* Nah.
Another one that caught my eye was a book supplier looking for someone who can speak English fluently for customer service. Weeell, not to sound conceited but I think my English is still good enough. I wouldn't have to face anyone directly, just over phone, and the pay is pretty big. Just two problems. The place takes more than 3 hours to get to and I have a bad habit of fumbling over my words when I speak. Scratch that out, too.
Er....maybe I should just focus on this short semester. (See how indecisive I am?)
However, I do hope I'll be able to meet my Obaachan (Japanese for grandma) this June.
She told me last month that she'll have church activities in my city sometime during this month.
Oh, don't be surprised. Since my dad's a convert to Islam, half of my family is Protestant. The ones from my grandmother's side still practice Shinto as well. I saw a clip of my uncle (whom I never met in real life) getting married in a Shinto ceremony.
Some of my friends plan to come over since they're taking short courses at their universities as well.
Looking forward to that, too!
More randomness: I finally watched Versailles' LIVE DVD (ripped) "Chateau de Versailles". They were just..AMAZING. Forgive me for not having a credit card and downloading it illegally. *runs*