This new old experiment is not going entirely as I hoped for.

[insomnia]

So,  It's not even two days since my last post, and already I have two things I wanted to write about in detail, but don't feel entirely comfortable about writing here, dealing with love, sex, personal kinks, friendship, respect... and the obliquely-implied, silently-whispered ways in which they all connect to each other.

*sadmaking*

(Well, three if

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[shortindiangirl]

Does ANYone feel normal ? Is that even possible ?
I do know some people with low intensity levels for everything. Very convenient as you put it. Comfortable. But then again, are they getting much out of life ?

[eowyn797]

dude, what happened to "fuck you"? write about it anyway :) it's your journal!

seems pretty "normal" to long for things you don't have :) grass is always greener and whatnot.

[insomnia]

I did write about it to some extent. But that said, there will probably always be some things I hold back to not hurt others. I know the significance of what I write to me, which counts far more about how transparent it is for everyone else.

Being completely open about everything is a work-in-progress, and isn't always appropriate. The more important thing, to me, is that I am writing about myself and for myself, and that it's beneficial to the process, so to speak.

[insomnia]

IOW, even if its "obliquely-implied, silently-whispered", it's still written down to and for me. And that's a start.

Really, it's actually kind of a dicey thing for me to think of others reading this. I think that's been part of the problem. Frankly, I have been thinking of simply turning comments off entirely, if only because it might make it easier for me to write what I want without thinking as much about other people's judgments or feelings.