[147] I'm addicted to you, and you know that you're toxic...
So I've decided to join the cult following:
It's time for a Friends Cut.
As I was running along the track yesterday, I was thinking and I remembered why I created this journal. I created this journal so I can actually say what is on my mind. I am tired of watching what I say so my "friends" will not freak out. I am constantly writing LJ entries and then deleting them in fear of what others will think... It recently has occurred to me that I should be able to say whatever the hell is on my mind in my journal, or it just defeats the purpose. I love you all but if I can't relate to you OR we don't communicate regularly (through AIM, phone, LJ comments, IRL, etc) I won't add you back.
I just do not want to be censored for what I believe in, who I am, and whatever I do and I'm beginning to find the value of genuine privacy essential to my life right now.
Just know I never really wanted to do this, but it's a must.
So if you want to be added back, read my FO entry and if you agree, just comment.
To those that most likely won't be added back: please do not take this personally. I just need to form some boundaries in my life, and I took the time to think to myself, "Would I want this person reading my diary, even if it were a paper journal?" The answer for me was no. You are one of my most cherished gems, and I love you. With that said, your place in my life has not been diminished at all. Don't forget that.
And I just gotta let some people go.
REVAMP.
Over & out.
It's time for a Friends Cut.
As I was running along the track yesterday, I was thinking and I remembered why I created this journal. I created this journal so I can actually say what is on my mind. I am tired of watching what I say so my "friends" will not freak out. I am constantly writing LJ entries and then deleting them in fear of what others will think... It recently has occurred to me that I should be able to say whatever the hell is on my mind in my journal, or it just defeats the purpose. I love you all but if I can't relate to you OR we don't communicate regularly (through AIM, phone, LJ comments, IRL, etc) I won't add you back.
I just do not want to be censored for what I believe in, who I am, and whatever I do and I'm beginning to find the value of genuine privacy essential to my life right now.
Just know I never really wanted to do this, but it's a must.
So if you want to be added back, read my FO entry and if you agree, just comment.
To those that most likely won't be added back: please do not take this personally. I just need to form some boundaries in my life, and I took the time to think to myself, "Would I want this person reading my diary, even if it were a paper journal?" The answer for me was no. You are one of my most cherished gems, and I love you. With that said, your place in my life has not been diminished at all. Don't forget that.
And I just gotta let some people go.
REVAMP.
Over & out.