I'm so damn bored. But I think I'm getting better, which is really good. I'm looking to be out of my house by tomorrow. Until then, I'll just go online and watch movies.

Ruby comes back today!!!

Well, since I'm so damn sick, I'm going to write as long an entry as I can. Just because I'm so sad and bored and in pain all at the same time. I think writing about things might take my mind off of it. Hopefully it will, because right about now I feel like driving a big, dull stake through my chest and enduring a painful death. At least then I'll ( Read more... )

Well last night was pretty cool. I just ate dinner and went to Jeremy's. His parents weren't home, so it was pretty fun. We just hung out in his attic listening to music and playing playstation. Then he kicked us out, and me and Mike walked to Mike's house. As soon as we got there, we saw that my dad and his parents were all in the kitchen and we ( Read more... )

So much to write about. I went to my Grandmothers, and had a good time and got really nice gifts. And I had a great chat with my cousin. Then I came home, and Ruby and Mike and Jeremy came over, and we played Sorry. What a great game. I love that game. And we got a pizza but Mike had to leave before it came. And Ruby gave me the most amazing ( Read more... )

Well, I've certainly cheered up a bit. I had a good Christmas. Nothing bad happened, no outbursts or anything, and I got some good gifts. I got ( Read more... )

Holy shit. I can't believe this. I won't be seeing Ruby for like a week. And it makes me feel like dying. I don't even know what to say. It's not her fault, it's not anyones fault, I'm just really sad. I feel like I was cheated yesterday, and I was hoping to see her today, but that won't work out, and then I won't see her for like a week, and I ( Read more... )

Well, my sister woke me up again. She ran into my room and poked me in the back. At 7:15 in the morning. And since I felt I had nothing better to do, I ran down here and decided to write something. Writing stuff in this journal always makes me feel better about everything ( Read more... )

Well I think I'm figuring this thing out. It seems like I don't have anything to look forward to anymore. Which makes me feel worthless. And it's always worse at night, when I'm alone. So I just need to stick around friends for the meantime. Until then, someone please kill me.

Well, today had it's ups and downs. I think more downs than ups, but maybe it'll get better ( Read more... )

Well, know how I was feeling before? I just finished watching something with my mom about kids in Africa. Wonderful. I feel like just slitting my throat. I've got to get control. It's getting really bad. And I feel like somethings going to happen. And it really bothers me. And I hate how they tell us to act normal, but then tell us there's a big ( Read more... )