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Okay, I admit it. At least to myself and definitely not to anyone else. And I'm only admitting it now because of the lyrics I wrote last night which I affectionately titled, "Missed Opportunity" though after the realization I almost retitled it to "Missing You Because You're an Idiot and Didn't Realize I Love You and Now You're With Someone Else"
That crush I had on Kenya years ago that I always told myself died out shortly after it started never actually did. I buried it and ignored it since I knew the idiot didn't like men and would freak out and why ruin a friendship over a kiss, right?
Now he's into guys, or at least this Yuu character, and it's annoying me. Jealousy I guess. I've had that crush on him for... eight years or something like that but never made a serious move outside of the teasing and now he's having sex with a complete stranger and still doesn't fully admit to it or change the way he looks at me.
I guess I'm just not his type or he doesn't think of me like that because of our frienship and being almost like brothers.
Oh well. Not like I have time for a real relationship right now anyway and the mess that everything would become if I dated Kenya and fed Bane? Pass.