Ran into a dancer friend at a concert. Hugged, said hello. Started to ask "how are you" but she put a strawberry in my mouth, smiled, and disappeared.

I don't trust the future. I spent my childhood poor enough that we got expired dairy products for free, and I developed a taste for sour chocolate milk. Poor enough that I once wrote an essay for school about my house, and my teacher thought I had made it up because she thought I was homeless. But at the same time we were always planning for what ( Read more... )

Three breaks in the bones of my feet. Two mostly healed and requiring only a little care, one still needing taping. Hyperextension in the joints of both thumbs. Pulled muscle in calf, mostly healed. Pulled muscle in abdomen, mostly healed. Minor tendonitis in the left wrist, more serious in the right one. Left shoulder instability, ongoing. Two ( Read more... )

I break and I heal. I wake and I sleep. I lift and I catch. Cycles inside cycles. And in all of them I am in love.

There is a big red ball at the circus. It's hard plastic and about three feet in diameter. I learned to walk on it, and then to juggle on it, and then to jump rope on it. But I have been wanting to try something for ages: to walk on it while someone is standing on my shoulders. Today, after four failed attempts (which ended without injury thanks to ( Read more... )

Standing in front of the pool before saying goodbye, she looks up at me and says "how did you get so tall?" I forget sometimes how small she is. She is so strong, and always on her tiptoes besides. Or on my tiptoes. So much of my daily life is keeping her safe. And I can. When she falls, I can catch her. When she reaches, I can grasp her. I don't ( Read more... )

I find myself taking notes a lot these days. Writing down little reminders and fragments of thoughts that I want to come back to. Writing, in short, about what I want to write about. There is one particular thought that I have been circling for weeks, trying to capture in concrete language. It's a delicate time for a thought. If you move too fast ( Read more... )

I have never been very afraid of falling down or getting hurt. I've talked before about how that is what allows me to progress quickly at learning things like the unicycle. I know how to land, and I don't mind bruises and scrapes ( Read more... )

I am in my body. Sore in the right hip. Tape wrapped around my left wrist, and my left hand is on my chest. My heart is full and glad. It is overflowing. I am smiling. I have a beer in my right hand ( Read more... )

I am breathing it in.


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