I don't know what to say, I'm so lost right now. I keep trying to figure out where I am, in all senses of the term, and as soon as I begin to draw a conclusion, I lose track again. I feel so weak, you know, I'm not even able to understand myself half the time, and then I go on wishing someone else understood me. I don't know, it's bullshit, I mean ( Read more... )

Well, I barely ever write in this thing, so I guess it's due time for another entry. Today I left school early, called the parental units and they came and got me. I was depressed as hell, ready to die. I got home, and my dad started yelling at me to fucking clean my room, I screamed at him to leave me alone. Cleaned my room, and now I'm at Nancy's ( Read more... )

School starts tomorrow, I really don't want it to. You know what I realized? I really don't like how the youth is today. Seriously, our youth is like a moral-less, heartless, brainless cult. Few people actually stand out, and don't get sucked into the society, but others do, and they don't realize it, and wont admit it. I avoid society, why would I ( Read more... )

Hey there. There are only 2 more day's of Jr. Guards, and then it's vacation with Nancy, and then school, yuck, school. I don't want Guards to end, it's so fun! Today we did a pier-jetty-pier (swim around the pier-run 6 miles-swim around the pier again) and I feel like my body is made of lead, haha, I didn't get a very good time, but I beat like 3/ ( Read more... )

Raging Waters was fun, I hung out with the love interest, and some other people, not with my B friend. I'm not too sure if the love interest is a love interest anymore, I'm kind of over it. My parents are going to a party Saturday night, and it's a wine party, and my mommy say that they're going to be gone really late, and that they might not even ( Read more... )

I have no idea what is going on with me and the love interest, quite frankly, I don't really care. What happens happens, we'll leave it at that. Tomorrow is the Raging Waters trip with guards, I don't know if I'm going to hang out with my cool safety aid friends, I might hang out with some Bs, because I have a friend who is a B and he's really cool ( Read more... )

Today Jessica and I rode bikes to Petco, we were going to buy a mouse, but I didn't have enough money to buy the food and everything for him, so I rode my bike all the way back home and got some more money, then, we were about to buy him, and the bitch at the counter wouldn't sell him to us because we weren't 18. Tell me how much that sucks! And he ( Read more... )

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I would like to post on here some sutff about my mom. I am extremely lucky to have been granted such a wonderful mother. If I believed there was a God, I would thank him every second of every day for her. My mom has helped me to realize the wrongs of society, the rights of it, and that I don't have to sit back and let things happen, that I can take ( Read more... )

Hey there, I haven't really been updating this too much, but it's ok. I'm still having a jolly time with the love interest, yes jolly. I think I'm getting sick, and i don't wanna be sick, but whatever, things could always be worse. I'm going to start posting a quote from Henry David Thoreau every time I make an entry in here, because I think that ( Read more... )