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i have a problem. well actually, a friend has a problem. well, we BOTH have problems. my problem is that i cannot find the compassion to speak to her about her problem. i want to so badly. in fact i know i have to. its not a question of whether or not i will, but rather, when. its just that everytime i set myself up to do it i fail. i chicken out. i look at her and say to myself
"she's going to shoot me down".
how can i be so selfish? how can i talk to her out of love but be more concerned about how it will effect me? I CAN'T. its impossible. i have to let go. i have to make it all about her. no janna.
this is so hard.
i need prayer. please pray for me. and her. pray that i have the guts to talk to her and say what has to be said. pray that i do it with the right motivation. pray that she understands why i'm doing it. pray that she can be vunerable enough to trust. pray that she can heal.
only through god can this happen.