I'm only worth walking all over. Can anyone diagnose me? Tell me what's wrong with me? Why am i the way i am? Why is it no one can stick around? Seriously this isn't the typical feel sorry for me entry. I want feedback. Because apparently i'm pretty f'ed up in the head. Why can't i give everything over to God like i used to? What happened to my ( Read more... )

my dad's a complete ass. Tonight he took me and my 3 roomates out to Olive Garden for a valentine dinner and he got us each a red rose. SO WHY IS HE AN ASS HOLE? Well there i was sitting next to him and i said "hey um who gave you that watch it's not the one i gave you?" and in front of everyone with a big smile on his face he declared "MY ( Read more... )

Im freakin' sick! and it sucks! i have now missed 3 days of work. i can't stop coughing, im really weak, i can't eat, and i get really light headed. I'm actually getting better. But today i got real light headed and i feel sick! Man i hate working with these germ infested kids. Right now my boss told me that the flu,strep throat, and mono are going ( Read more... )

Today i came home from work sick...BLAH! I've been feeling sick the past few days and it has not been cool in the least! I can't eat, i'm always tired and my head is throbbing. I just want to feel better!! Alot has been going on lately if you've read...but it's all just stupid drama that i unfortunately allowed myself to be involved in. oh well i'm ( Read more... )

Have u ever experienced moments of doubt? And i mean real moments. Let me explain. Last week i actually convinced myself that i did not believe in G O D anymore. Can you believe it!? But as i thought about it more and more it seemed as though i just began to feel guilty about my life and that i didn't want to feel as if i was in the wrong. So i ( Read more... )

So i moved in with Kelb and Kait. and life is amazing with 3 girls 2 kittens and a brother. Kelbs brother that is. I love this house and everything about it. I love these amazing roomates that are so generous and oh so funny! OUr nights consist of endless laughter and constant retardedness. No sleep in this household!! I know now this is where i am ( Read more... )

LEAH IS HOME! i just got back from the airport...she looks so good. She's still tiny but at least now she looks healthy and not like a skeleton. Man she was so happy. I hope now she knows how beautiful and amazing she is. Thank you Lord so much! I know you're keeping her strong. I got in my car afterwards and just teared up. I'm just so thankful ( Read more... )

SO friday night i went out with the lovely gilchrist crew. Attending was only Amanda, Thomas, Julie, Lauren, Kathleen and myself as well as Kaitlyn who joined me. We went to Stetsons which was a blast with of course some drama. Thomas saw his recent ex gf with another guy. Devon and Julies Boy got kicked out. Nevertheless it was a good night. ( Read more... )

So guess what journal, Steph is moving out. Indeed she is.Stephanie Anne will now be roomie's with Ms. Kelby Mathews and for a short period Mr. Evan Mathews. Kaitlyn will also be moving in! I thini there is a rumor that Timothy Linafelt could be joining the household is all goes as planned. OH man the crazy dance parties we will have....who's ( Read more... )

The year 2005 what this year holds i have no idea..but i imagine a few more broken hearts, a few more family crisis's, a couple more lost friendships and of course so more problems with my car. Why am i so pestimistic i wonder? This past year that's exactly what i've been the epitamy of a Scrooge. I wonder what happened? Did i finally grow up and ( Read more... )