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Merry Christmas!
This could be long, so...
Yeah, leave it to me. So, now that it's Christmas, I find myself somewhat sad. And so um... people are really going to hate me for saying this, but I'm only going to be honest here. I find myself missing Aaron, due to the holidays. I know that I'm better off without him, but damn. And this is totally ridiculous. I just miss having someone nearby. We talked every night, and some of the things he said to me just made me feel so important and wanted. Then there were always those times where he treated me like shit, to keep his "guy-like composure" in front of his friends. Justin only tried to warn me that he was bad news and that I would only get hurt. I should've listened to him. I should've listened to the person that knows him best; his best friend. I just want someone that I can be with. Someone to love me. Someone to spend the holiday season with, ya know? It just ... sucks. When I find someone that is potential, there's always a huge flaw in it. They either have someone (yeah.. bad situation), they live too far away, they don't really care about me like they say they do, he and I have a past (a not-so-good past), or... they get tired of me. Maybe I'm better off by myself, because I clearly can't handle this whole relationship thing.
Drew and I had everything. That ended with him cheating on me. Aaron and I had a lot of differences, but we were seemingly making it work better than it should've.. until he "got tired of me". Travis and I were too good of friends to make a relationship work. Evan talks about his ex-girlfriend too much and says he'd still be happy if they were together and not angry (like he is now), yet says he loves me and wants to stay with me (even though he is an ass to me half the time). And just.. ugh, nevermind. Rani + relationships = total disaster. I'm done with this now.
This could be long, so...
Yeah, leave it to me. So, now that it's Christmas, I find myself somewhat sad. And so um... people are really going to hate me for saying this, but I'm only going to be honest here. I find myself missing Aaron, due to the holidays. I know that I'm better off without him, but damn. And this is totally ridiculous. I just miss having someone nearby. We talked every night, and some of the things he said to me just made me feel so important and wanted. Then there were always those times where he treated me like shit, to keep his "guy-like composure" in front of his friends. Justin only tried to warn me that he was bad news and that I would only get hurt. I should've listened to him. I should've listened to the person that knows him best; his best friend. I just want someone that I can be with. Someone to love me. Someone to spend the holiday season with, ya know? It just ... sucks. When I find someone that is potential, there's always a huge flaw in it. They either have someone (yeah.. bad situation), they live too far away, they don't really care about me like they say they do, he and I have a past (a not-so-good past), or... they get tired of me. Maybe I'm better off by myself, because I clearly can't handle this whole relationship thing.
Drew and I had everything. That ended with him cheating on me. Aaron and I had a lot of differences, but we were seemingly making it work better than it should've.. until he "got tired of me". Travis and I were too good of friends to make a relationship work. Evan talks about his ex-girlfriend too much and says he'd still be happy if they were together and not angry (like he is now), yet says he loves me and wants to stay with me (even though he is an ass to me half the time). And just.. ugh, nevermind. Rani + relationships = total disaster. I'm done with this now.