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la chute
Its easy to forget where you came from. I mean eveyone has a genesis story which says "this is who I am", which of course is somewhat (ie totally) detatched from their origins. You'll have to take what you read here (and everything else) with a pinch of salt ( Read more... ) -
some random news
Been at my parents overnight. My father said I could move back in and have my old room back. I think hell would have to freeze over, or at least my bank account before that would or could ever happen ( Read more... ) -
how could i be wrong
Sometimes I just don't know what to write ( Read more... ) -
Programming the Psychodrill
"Christianity, and nothing else, is the ultimate foundation of liberty, conscience, human rights, and democracy, the benchmarks of Western civilization. To this day, we have no other options [than Christianity]. We continue to nourish ourselves from this source. Everything else is postmodern chatter."Jurghen Habermas (2006?2007?)I was never much ( Read more... ) -
"treating my needs"
I still haven't wrote my fucking essay. Today I went on a stupid course. Then I went home and slept. I then walked in the pouring rain to the "gay village" where I procured a whole 9" veggie pizza for £2.40. I guess Manchester still has its plus points ( Read more... ) -
im not the ones who's so absurd
I've got to admit. I find essay writin hard. I'm sat at the last chance saloon. I should be writing. I find myself reading the négritude poets and Baudillard. Have I fucked up again? I'm running on less than empty. I'm going to crash and burn tomorrow. But this fucker has to be done tonight - or else???? I haven't got a fucking clue. And ( Read more... ) -
end of the road?
I can read all day - but I can't write unless I feel it - and then, who for? Me? An audience? I can't write on tap. I can't do fucking essays and I'm not loathe to admit that I'm really struggling right now. I can read another language but I cannot speak it. What does that mean? What does that say about me? I knoiw girls who know a fraction ( Read more... ) -
wartime
Today I had my last beer and whiskey for a month. I drank alone while reading Sartre in the "Moon Under Water". Pretentious, moi? Well we all know it. But its all task avoidance, we all know I have bigger fish to fry and for whatever reason I'm finding myself emotionally and psychically capable of frying them. But I must and I just need to ( Read more... ) -
wasting my fucking time?we all die in the end.
I'm drunk ( Read more... ) -
its like may 2k without the sex - the stakes are still high and the sky is falling in
There are moments where I wish I could communicate a little better ( Read more... )