if youve ever seen the l word, you may remember alices chart. its the drama. it really is.

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valentines day wasn't bad. the whole day i was antsy, and in an ok mood. people at work made really cute cards for their boyfriends, i bought a bunch of candy and listened to songs about chickens. and i tried not to think about ryan. i did though ( Read more... )

well today was interesting ( Read more... )

i'm feeling better. i just have bad days sometimes. i hate the world we live in. i hate the system and the society and the standards. but sometimes i focus so much on that that i forget that everyone else has to deal with it too. i just want to change the world, maybe i could a little. maybe we all could a lot ( Read more... )

for a while i thought things had changed. maybe they did change. i went from thinking about suicide every day for 4 years, to just thinking about death every day for a year, to not thinking about death at all for a while. and recently life just seems stupid again. i am hating myself, and my life. it just seems so stupid ( Read more... )

so we had a 2 hour meeting at work yesterday so now i have to go in every day but thursday. and i even have to go in thursday. and i really like it there but i'm working full time and i still don't make enough to have an apartment. it sucks ( Read more... )

it's 2007. in 2005 i decided to take a year off to work in retail and save money ( Read more... )

my sister moved to florida.
i'm dating someone.
i can't find my cigarettes. i decided to quit last monday then i decided to unquit on wednesday.
i've been working on these

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