If you read all of this, you are amazing

[inudela]

I seem to only ever update when I'm sad/angry, and I'm sorry you have to read it. I just really hate life rn. Everything I've ever worked for is going down the drain. I guess whether anyone reads this will be of little consequence; I'm just in desperate need of a place to spill out all my thoughts and problems, and where else to go but here? I feel

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[maple88]

Do General Studies programs exist in England?
That's what I did when I didn't get accepted to my school of choice for the program I wanted. I applied for the same school in a general studies program, and I started with all the electives I could get my hands on, and then reapplied for my program and got accepted. Sorry, I know nothing of the British university system.

As for your parents, I wouldn't tell them anything until you have a plan, or at least a vague idea of what you're gonna do now.

[inudela]

Unfortunately no...Or I probably would've gone down that route too. I guess the american and british systems are pretty different. Thank you though (:

Yeah, I haven't quite figured out what i'm going to say/when I'm going to say it, but I think I'm going to let them know sometime soon. I'd feel guiltier the longer I keep it from them ):

[maple88]

And here's a giant virtual hug for you, girl~ *HUG*

Be strong, kay?

[inudela]

If I could squish you right now, I would. srsly thank you so much <3

[hitsujiga]

bb i'm sorry to hear that you had to go through all of this ;~; *hugs

[inudela]

Reading this comment made me want to cry all over again seriously it's perfect. ilu bb ;_____; You really managed to make me feel 100x better when I felt like shit, and if I could mem comments this would be amongst the top. I have no idea what I could do to make up for this because you really have no idea how much this helped me. So even though I'm nowhere near as good as you at comforting people, if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here to listen. This is probably one of the best comments I have ever read in my life, and I know this reply does it no justice, but really bb, thank you from the bottom of my heart. it was exactly what i needed ♥

And I took your advice, and went to talk to some of my teachers about it. They were really supportive too, and I'm glad I did go to look for help. Once I've figured out what I want to say to my parents, I'll tell them too...I don't want to leave this hanging. It'd make me feel guiltier by hiding this for so long. Thank you so much bb ;____;

[hitsujiga]

;_; i'm glad i could help you, really!
normally i just babble away and people are appreciative but i don't give advice while majorly sucking at life myself...i give advice BECAUSE i suck at life and i know what went wrong until now. and i know how i badly need motivation from outside because i can't motivate myself.
so i'm really glad this made you feel better. everyone i know that is younger than me has the same problems as me and all of those friends are so desperate and think it's the end of the world. i'm still here - so i tell you: it's not the end, just pull through and face the next challenge. it's always worth a fight, even if you lose in the end. you can only become a better person....and that's not losing at all, that's gaining experience and confidence!

and i'm really proud of you, you went to your teachers and looked for help! it's not easy to admit you are lost. and when you have a little plan at your hands your parents won't be as disappointed. i'm sure <3

[hardcorxsooshee]

ok i have to admit i didn't read the whole thing -___-
but your work wasn't for nothing! WATCHU TALKIN BOUT
don't be sad about not getting into those colleges. something better will come in the future!
have you thought about college in hk?

ADD OIL!!!

[inudela]

That's okay, I wasn't expecting anyone to even bother reading any of it, so thank you bb. Yeah, now that I've like cleared my mind, I realise it's not the end of the world (:

haha add oil! are you from hk, or do you just know the phrase? I wasn't expecting chinglish here it made me smile

[hardcorxsooshee]

yes im from hk. we had a whole conversation about hk school system compared to western schools. don't you remember!? ;A;

[jxsica]

Omg bb *hugs* I'm sorry you're going through such a tough time right now

[inudela]

Thank you for writing such an amazing, supportive comment. you're amazing *hugs* i think reassessing my goals is definitely a really good piece of advice - I've been doubting whether or not i chose the right course for a while now, so maybe this is all for the better.
Trying to be as unbiased as possible, but yeah ia, I think the university system has some major flaws in it...but idk they receive so many applications i guess they can't really ask for more information, or else they'd drown trying to process it all.

Writing everything down has definitely helped me, but your amazing comment also contributed a great deal. thank you for making me feel so much better, it really means a lot to me ♥