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What is more important, self-preservation or forgiveness?
Silly! As if there's any difference at all between the two!
*laughs merrily*
My body doesn't really mean much of anything. If I die, I die. But I wouldn't be me if I didn't love and forgive and make people happy.
To love is to live. To hate is to die. To love you must forgive. To hate you must refuse to.
Don't you see? How can you live without forgiveness? All people must step away from the past and into the future. You can't do that if you carry old hate and pain. It'll pull at you, tug you back, drown you.
You can always drown in the past, even when you're dead. I don't want that. I have no intention of ending up trapped in a sea of my own making.
So I'll forgive.
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How did you lose your virginity?
I didn’t. Or haven’t. And probably won’t.
After all, I’m only fourteen. And maybe I’ll die soon.
But I might not! I might live. And if I get older and Sorata stops threatening to kill every man who so much as looks at me, then I might… Maybe… With Kusanagi someone special.
I might live. I want to live, I’m determined to live! And you’re always more likely to live if you really mean to and really want to, right?
…Right?
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What’s your favorite guilty indulgence?
I don’t feel guilty about much at all, really, because I don’t do much that anyone could possibly feel guilty about.
But I suppose there is one thing I might call a guilty indulgence. On the campus there’s this planetarium, and there are almost always people in it. I mean, there are students, doing work. They let me sit in an out of the way seat, and I stare up at the stars on the ceiling.
I can cry there. It’s dark. No one can see me. So, sometimes, when I feel like I have to get away and let go of everything that’s happened, I go there, and I cry.
Everybody needs me to be happy. But I can’t be happy all the time.
I feel guilty for it.
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What do you want on your tombstone - and why?
Ooooh… It’s bad luck to ask those things. Don’t you know that? Ask, and you’ll answer. Answer and you’ll start to get used to the idea of dying. Get used to it and you’ll start to want it, just a little. And once you want it, even if just a little, then you make a mistake and end up dead.
Or you ask to die, try to bargain for other lives, and end up dead. Like Daisuke.
I’d really rather not think about it. But I’ve asked - you’ve asked - and the question has to be answered.
I want dates that are a long, long way away from now.
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What makes you laugh?
Rain, sunshine, penguins, pigeons, Kusanagi covered in friendly stray cats, Kamui looking bewildered, Sorata’s jokes, Arashi’s bad temper, Karen’s teasing, Mr. Akoi’s silly ties, knowing that spring is coming, watching fallen leaves dance in the wind, running…
Almost everything. I laugh a lot.
It’s best to laugh as much as you can.
OOC:'m terribly, terribly sorry I vanished for so long. It was a combination of ill health, computer truobles, and getting grounded. No excuse, but there you go...
Silly! As if there's any difference at all between the two!
*laughs merrily*
My body doesn't really mean much of anything. If I die, I die. But I wouldn't be me if I didn't love and forgive and make people happy.
To love is to live. To hate is to die. To love you must forgive. To hate you must refuse to.
Don't you see? How can you live without forgiveness? All people must step away from the past and into the future. You can't do that if you carry old hate and pain. It'll pull at you, tug you back, drown you.
You can always drown in the past, even when you're dead. I don't want that. I have no intention of ending up trapped in a sea of my own making.
So I'll forgive.
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How did you lose your virginity?
I didn’t. Or haven’t. And probably won’t.
After all, I’m only fourteen. And maybe I’ll die soon.
But I might not! I might live. And if I get older and Sorata stops threatening to kill every man who so much as looks at me, then I might… Maybe… With Kusanagi someone special.
I might live. I want to live, I’m determined to live! And you’re always more likely to live if you really mean to and really want to, right?
…Right?
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What’s your favorite guilty indulgence?
I don’t feel guilty about much at all, really, because I don’t do much that anyone could possibly feel guilty about.
But I suppose there is one thing I might call a guilty indulgence. On the campus there’s this planetarium, and there are almost always people in it. I mean, there are students, doing work. They let me sit in an out of the way seat, and I stare up at the stars on the ceiling.
I can cry there. It’s dark. No one can see me. So, sometimes, when I feel like I have to get away and let go of everything that’s happened, I go there, and I cry.
Everybody needs me to be happy. But I can’t be happy all the time.
I feel guilty for it.
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What do you want on your tombstone - and why?
Ooooh… It’s bad luck to ask those things. Don’t you know that? Ask, and you’ll answer. Answer and you’ll start to get used to the idea of dying. Get used to it and you’ll start to want it, just a little. And once you want it, even if just a little, then you make a mistake and end up dead.
Or you ask to die, try to bargain for other lives, and end up dead. Like Daisuke.
I’d really rather not think about it. But I’ve asked - you’ve asked - and the question has to be answered.
I want dates that are a long, long way away from now.
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What makes you laugh?
Rain, sunshine, penguins, pigeons, Kusanagi covered in friendly stray cats, Kamui looking bewildered, Sorata’s jokes, Arashi’s bad temper, Karen’s teasing, Mr. Akoi’s silly ties, knowing that spring is coming, watching fallen leaves dance in the wind, running…
Almost everything. I laugh a lot.
It’s best to laugh as much as you can.
OOC:'m terribly, terribly sorry I vanished for so long. It was a combination of ill health, computer truobles, and getting grounded. No excuse, but there you go...