Random lil update...
Update time!!yay!!!o.o sry I haven't been on in forever.You know how things get :D
Ello ppl ^-^.Before I fill you in on wa I've been up to,I'd like to straighten out something I was talking about in my last entry post.Everything was long ago cleared up n turned out to be a huge misunderstanding.So,when it come to that-it's ancient,pointless history.*smiles sadly*But that doesn't mean I'm any better off...*sighs*of course,things have happened since.
Negative things:
Ok,first off-my Dad lost his job and is very close to losing his mind over it.Depressed and full of self-pity,he's not doing very much lately.I can't help but worry about his blood pressure...
Secondly,my mom's been slowly getting over pneumonia for the past couple of weeks,putting an even greater strain on the family and worrying me even more*sighs restlessly*.I knew something was wrong whenever she coughed-it's not the same as her usual "caused by smoking" cough.
Thirdly,Kathy's joining the marines...and I really don't want her too...I mean-I'm happy for her but-...I dont know...
Fourthly,Jessy's going to South Korea around the same time Kathy leaves for bootcamp.I'm beyond thrilled that she's going,but...Kathy and her disappearing around the same time??It scares me alil..not to mention the freakin crazies over there o.o
Fifthly,an...incident with someone I'd put almost all my trust in turned out to be what I've always subconsciously known them to be...causing me to take five steps back and really think about somethings...not just who I trust but why I let myself get so close to that person when I knew what they were capable of*starts to tear,the pressure on my shoulders growing*I lived in denial for awhile about it until I was for sure I was emotionally stable to handle sorting through it...*coughs alil wiping my eyes*thankfully Cassie was there with me when I finally did face it...
Sixthly,in that lil session with with Cassie-I also told her something I've been hiding for the past...god knows how many years...*stares at the floor numbly*...something that lead her to understand y I am the way I am...*freshly torn hole in my chest burns violently*something no one but she n I know...
EEEEEEER!!!*wipes my eyes again,hiccupping down more tears*I don't wanna think about this anymore!!!
Positives:
Ok,ok-distractions!!!I need to talk about my distractions!!
Well,for starters,I've found a new luv!!Corny corny Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne-a chick manga from the 1990's :D.I have to read it on onemanga.com so it's taking me a while to finish,but I'm luving it so far (even though it is a chick manga).I dont know how to explain it without getting all detailed like I oh so often do when I'm explaining a manga-so u're just going to have to check it out urselves :P.Let's just say it's definitely not a manga for all ages *smiles evily*It's funny cuz I'll be sitting here reading it n start yelling at one of the characters for being stupid (Like Maron*glares at her for her annoyingly naive nature),then I'll hear Dad laughing at me from the living room -_-'.lol-It's quite entertaining.Cassie wants me to check out a manga called "Angel's Dust"(i think) and Jazzy was reading a manga on onemanga.com the other day in systems lit. called "Bloody Kiss"(i think) n it looked pretty cool,so I'm probably going to be spending a majority of my weekends reading things on the computer.But,on the 12th, I'm going to be doing something MUUUUCH more enjoyable*smiles like a fool*
Becuz my oh so lovely sister Jessy is just one of the cooliest people I know-she will be taking two of my other sisters and I to heaven on Earth:The Cherry Blossom festival in Fort Wayne.*jumps up n down squealing uncontrollably*I-CAN'T-WAAAIIITTT!!!!Japanese EVERYTHING!!!*laughs evily*I really really REALLY hope nothing goes wrong!*knocks on wood*now*takes several deep breaths*before I have a panic attack at the thought of not being able to go-I will continue on with my update!!^-^
OH!This spring break was a friggin blast!Kathy and Chris had us down for basically the entire week we were off.Between putt-putting,going to the mall,playing around on their XBOX and just hangin out with both of them-I'd have to say it was a week I nEEEEEEEEEEver wanted to end ^-^.Though I had a bit of a problem getting and staying asleep there in the beginning(I've been having a really bad problem with nightmares again -_-',I'm just glad I didn't wake up crying like I usually do...*falls into a quiet,depressing moment of thinking-quickly kicking myself out of it*), I gradually got comfortable with it. Going down there and enjoying myself like I did was something I've needed :).
*sighs alil*now I'm back to being happy though my mental durability is crumbling!*rolls my eyes*this sux ass so hard you have no clue.well,I'm off to go watch mind numbing T.V. so i dont have to think!
Sayonara!!*waves*
Oh, P.S.:How do you get ppl off your friends list on here??there's a certain someone I dont want anything to do with and sadly they're on my friends list*bites my cheek angrily*
Ello ppl ^-^.Before I fill you in on wa I've been up to,I'd like to straighten out something I was talking about in my last entry post.Everything was long ago cleared up n turned out to be a huge misunderstanding.So,when it come to that-it's ancient,pointless history.*smiles sadly*But that doesn't mean I'm any better off...*sighs*of course,things have happened since.
Negative things:
Ok,first off-my Dad lost his job and is very close to losing his mind over it.Depressed and full of self-pity,he's not doing very much lately.I can't help but worry about his blood pressure...
Secondly,my mom's been slowly getting over pneumonia for the past couple of weeks,putting an even greater strain on the family and worrying me even more*sighs restlessly*.I knew something was wrong whenever she coughed-it's not the same as her usual "caused by smoking" cough.
Thirdly,Kathy's joining the marines...and I really don't want her too...I mean-I'm happy for her but-...I dont know...
Fourthly,Jessy's going to South Korea around the same time Kathy leaves for bootcamp.I'm beyond thrilled that she's going,but...Kathy and her disappearing around the same time??It scares me alil..not to mention the freakin crazies over there o.o
Fifthly,an...incident with someone I'd put almost all my trust in turned out to be what I've always subconsciously known them to be...causing me to take five steps back and really think about somethings...not just who I trust but why I let myself get so close to that person when I knew what they were capable of*starts to tear,the pressure on my shoulders growing*I lived in denial for awhile about it until I was for sure I was emotionally stable to handle sorting through it...*coughs alil wiping my eyes*thankfully Cassie was there with me when I finally did face it...
Sixthly,in that lil session with with Cassie-I also told her something I've been hiding for the past...god knows how many years...*stares at the floor numbly*...something that lead her to understand y I am the way I am...*freshly torn hole in my chest burns violently*something no one but she n I know...
EEEEEEER!!!*wipes my eyes again,hiccupping down more tears*I don't wanna think about this anymore!!!
Positives:
Ok,ok-distractions!!!I need to talk about my distractions!!
Well,for starters,I've found a new luv!!Corny corny Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne-a chick manga from the 1990's :D.I have to read it on onemanga.com so it's taking me a while to finish,but I'm luving it so far (even though it is a chick manga).I dont know how to explain it without getting all detailed like I oh so often do when I'm explaining a manga-so u're just going to have to check it out urselves :P.Let's just say it's definitely not a manga for all ages *smiles evily*It's funny cuz I'll be sitting here reading it n start yelling at one of the characters for being stupid (Like Maron*glares at her for her annoyingly naive nature),then I'll hear Dad laughing at me from the living room -_-'.lol-It's quite entertaining.Cassie wants me to check out a manga called "Angel's Dust"(i think) and Jazzy was reading a manga on onemanga.com the other day in systems lit. called "Bloody Kiss"(i think) n it looked pretty cool,so I'm probably going to be spending a majority of my weekends reading things on the computer.But,on the 12th, I'm going to be doing something MUUUUCH more enjoyable*smiles like a fool*
Becuz my oh so lovely sister Jessy is just one of the cooliest people I know-she will be taking two of my other sisters and I to heaven on Earth:The Cherry Blossom festival in Fort Wayne.*jumps up n down squealing uncontrollably*I-CAN'T-WAAAIIITTT!!!!Japanese EVERYTHING!!!*laughs evily*I really really REALLY hope nothing goes wrong!*knocks on wood*now*takes several deep breaths*before I have a panic attack at the thought of not being able to go-I will continue on with my update!!^-^
OH!This spring break was a friggin blast!Kathy and Chris had us down for basically the entire week we were off.Between putt-putting,going to the mall,playing around on their XBOX and just hangin out with both of them-I'd have to say it was a week I nEEEEEEEEEEver wanted to end ^-^.Though I had a bit of a problem getting and staying asleep there in the beginning(I've been having a really bad problem with nightmares again -_-',I'm just glad I didn't wake up crying like I usually do...*falls into a quiet,depressing moment of thinking-quickly kicking myself out of it*), I gradually got comfortable with it. Going down there and enjoying myself like I did was something I've needed :).
*sighs alil*now I'm back to being happy though my mental durability is crumbling!*rolls my eyes*this sux ass so hard you have no clue.well,I'm off to go watch mind numbing T.V. so i dont have to think!
Sayonara!!*waves*
Oh, P.S.:How do you get ppl off your friends list on here??there's a certain someone I dont want anything to do with and sadly they're on my friends list*bites my cheek angrily*