Callous? Probably.

[invaderskooge]

My mum has gone off the deep end once again. It began on Thursday and I thought we had ended it on Friday. She kept pushing and needling yesterday while not understanding what I was saying and slurring. She's probably pumped herself full of meds. Keeps on about how she doesn't want to live anymore/would like to just drop dead. Highly

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[c0mfortable]

I know you'd hate me if I hugged you right now.

I luff you, I wish you could come with me to SF, seems like you need a vacation. But when I get back...it's on!

Oh, it is ON.

:)

[invaderskooge]

Thanks, Lizz. I really appreciate it. When you get back it is SO ON!

[empressdeath]

I don't know if I ever told you but my relationship with my father used to be completely screwed. He was metally verbally and physically abusive.

He used to tell me that I was worthless and would never amount to anything and I would end up pregnant and on welfare by the time I was 16...

Once I moved out things got better... also when he realized I was no longer going to let him tear me down... I stood up to him and just said, this shit is enough...

I know what that feels like... to just be so done with a situation... not mad not sad just fed up and numb.

I'm here if you want to talk... ever

xoxoxo

Thanks love.

[invaderskooge]

It's better and worse now that we don't live together. My mum's a needy woman and they type that will never be "filled", it's never enough. The grass is greener everywhere else and she can't see the nice tilling and flower beds I've made happy in her yard. It also doesn't help that she trips and falls into bottles of pills about every 3 months. Ever the martyr, ever the victim, that's my mum. Being an only child it gets really really tough to shoulder the full burden of her craziness, not to mention my dad's issues. This will pass, just like all the other incidents. Each time though, get a little more numb, a little more detached, a little more emotionless about the whole thing. Very weird place.