sure. ill start packing now! oh wait... you'll probably think about it and talk about it for hours, then last minute decide not to go. i dont know if i should get my hopes up this time. :)
why should i stop?invisible_ink8October 5 2004, 05:21:49 UTC
i have been bothered by something, i wrote it out, and now i am feeling a LOT better, why does that affect you? if you dont want to read it, its all good. :o) i didnt write it for you to read, just for me to release, maybe someone will see it, and say "hey, i felt the same... and know they arent alone". i have been sorta low recently, but God is taking me out of it, so i might not be writing much more sad stuff, like this... just being honest tho with who i am and what i have been fearing/feeling. i am sorry, tho if it bothered you, whoever you might be. night.
Why would I stop caring for you? To be real, you know it gets frustrating. I really want to understand, and I really want to communicate...
But just like you keep wondering why I am here, I will keep telling you this; I love you. Love doesn't stop in the face of frustration. It doesn't quit when the miles grow between us. Love is cool, and I have it for you. I don't think us hanging out or talking to each other is a lost cause. You are one of my best friends. Know that you are loved.
i know, that is why i didnt tell you my worries... bc i know that you would get tired of trying to convence me that youll be around. I am not only worried youll leave, i feel that with a lot of people, sometimes even my Heavenly Dad(maybe losing my earthly one made me fear tha, dumb that something soooo far gone still affects me now, haha
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oh wait... you'll probably think about it and talk about it for hours, then last minute decide not to go. i dont know if i should get my hopes up this time.
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i didnt write it for you to read, just for me to release, maybe someone will see it, and say "hey, i felt the same... and know they arent alone".
i have been sorta low recently, but God is taking me out of it, so i might not be writing much more sad stuff, like this... just being honest tho with who i am and what i have been fearing/feeling.
i am sorry, tho if it bothered you, whoever you might be.
night.
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But just like you keep wondering why I am here, I will keep telling you this; I love you. Love doesn't stop in the face of frustration. It doesn't quit when the miles grow between us. Love is cool, and I have it for you. I don't think us hanging out or talking to each other is a lost cause. You are one of my best friends. Know that you are loved.
Forever, Ben
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