More and more every day,
it pains me.
it hurts inside
I dream that i see him,
and hes doing well,
i have even dreamt he was mine,
everyday.
i get to show him off to all my friends.
and they truly see how much i do love him.
with all my heart.
a love havent experenced before.
i mean dont get me wrong.
i love the girls.
but i would gladly leave it all behind for ( Read more... )

*twitch*
i. am. so. parinoid.
i wanna scream.
you guys better put me in a insane asylum.
like now.
i think im pretty good at hiding my crazy, to people who dont know me.
bah.
*Danie*

i stoped because i didnt want it anymore ( Read more... )

i feel so un needed by anything and everything. thats what i thrive off of, being needed, and the one person that needs me, i cant even look at her. i need to vent, theres no one to vent to, so i will just explode. i havent actualy been hungry in days, my stomach hurts and thats it, i just starting craving stuff now, pizza lunchables, we have none ( Read more... )

i think i may have to do something i really dont want to do.
it makes me wanna cry just thinking about it.
but i cant take this.
i cant take the stress.
i cant take the worrying,the dumb attitude i get from them, i cant take any of it any more.
i have to get away from them.
i really dont want to lose them but i feel i have to.
i have tried everything.
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i'm quite tired
mostly tired of being confused.
my new policy is supposed to be just say no.
but we all know the truth.
im stupid.
or maybe im not.
i really realy wish i knew what was going on.
i wish i could figure out, how sometimes out of no where i feel,
alone.
i need something god cant give me.
not that i have lost faith, this has strangely brought me ( Read more... )

so, yeah. slow week.
im so ready for the weekend, saturday i get my nails done and then i pack for

FORT WORTH!

yeah. im ready then i stay there and have fun and shop, and do stuff. then i come home and CHRISTMAS! im so ready for christmas. you wanna know what i want?
Radio for my truck (im tired of the silence)
i want a new phone but i dont see that.
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but ti wasnt quite as bad as i expected ( Read more... )

for real.
what if i explode in to millions on peices.
all over the ground.
i dont exactly know why im angry,
i know why i was angry before, but
then i got confused. then i got angry.
why?
why?
why
why?
WHY!
i just saw it, and i was imidiately infuriated.
my soul pretty much caught on fire.
for real.
flames.
so angry i need to cry
i need to cry so bad, im shaking.
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i realy dont hink we are meant to be,
contrary to popular belif,
i realy dont.
like cause this time, i cried once.
count um honey.
ONCE.
i still have this slight feeling of aloneness/fear
but it was  no where near like the first time,
where i cried for weeks.
or the second time
where i cried for days.
once.
one time.
and im kind of afraid it will hit me later.
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