Moss on Stone -- Chapter 02

[invisiblehabits]

Title: Moss on Stone
Chapter: 02/05
Author: invisiblehabits
Beta: tingedwords
Genre: Angst/Light romance
Rating: R
Warnings: Implied malexmale sex, suicide attempt, terminal illness, violence, character death
Pairings: Kenzo/Hiroto, Tora/Hirot, Aki/Kenzo
Disclaimer: Don’t own, don’t know. Won’t make money unless you feel like paying me to read.
Summary: Kenzo allowed

Comments

[siseja]

*counts* twice.. that's three times alltogether

*sigh*
at one point Hiroto regularly visiting Tora's grave reminded me how Tora almost never got to visit his in Aroma... ;____;
it's kinda beautiful how they both handle it completely different...
Kenzo's more like Tora though, mourning and shutting himself in for years
wonder how Aki would react...
I can't help but wonder this, sorry
even though the thought of ANY ONE of them dying is just horrible >___<

...
*clings*

[invisiblehabits]

Aaaw!! You'll have no tears left if you keep crying like this! ...the worst is yet to come, in my personal opinion. *oops*

But you're right! I seem to be somewhat obsessed with death and graves and visiting them, hm.... Ironically I always pictured Tora being in jail for twelve years in Aroma, I never thought of that before now. Haha.

I'm glad you see the differences in their behaviour and ways of handling loss though, hopefully it'll become even more clear later on. And I think Aki would've handled Kenzo's death better than Kenzo handled/handles Aki's, but I'll leave that for you to decide as you read on.

Thank you for reading though! Here's to hoping neither of them EVER dies! Because it is a dreadful thought to say the least!

[siseja]

NOOOO! O-O DON'T YOU CARE KILL HIROTO AGAIN!!
;_____;

*sigh* it's funny how obsessed and involved I can get with fanfics i'm following chapter by chapter =w= especially involving these four characters
I WON'T EVEN LIKE ALICE NINE AND AYABIE! =w= (I love SID though)

...I feel like you're somehow foreshadowing something I don't want to happen even though I have no idea what this is....
....
and I hate twilight *random*

....
*pushes you towards computer* WRITE!

[invisiblehabits]

LOLOLOLOL!

Alice Nine are awesome, I do love them. And SID, definitely SID. Ayabie....there are a few songs I enjoy, haven't listened too much too them tbh, but I'm looking forward to the new release to see what they'll sound like now.

Twilight is hilariously bad! I've watched all three films, just to be able to laugh at them and actually tell people why I dislike things in there. It's just.....yeah, I can't stop laughing at how cheesy it all is!

And....this is all written already! It's done! Completed! XD
I'm just mean and not posting it all at once, cause I want to try and get some written on War and Peace and Vampires, hehe.

[suslik_san]

you're cutting me with this, but it's so true and its so wisely written
I like the fact you're not overdoing it in particular.

Just a few days ago I had a discussion with a friend mainly about coping with losing a beloved musician. I understand Kenzo's confusion on Hiroto's behavior, 'cause I felt the same when she said her room is full of Jasu's pictures and while she draws and writes about him and listens to old Versailes' songs it's like he's becoming even closer, while I try to avoid any mention of Moran. It was the first time I recognized another way of living this through. Somehow it feels right but I know I'm not able to do it like this. Seems like me and your Kenzo share it in common.

And I like that Kenzo's not commenting on the number of years passed. Time doesn't matter if you still have to let it go.

the simpleness of flashbacks in comparison to general heaviness of emotions is also a pure gold

[invisiblehabits]

I barely even know how to respond to his... Thank you, you're too kind in your words. To be honest I haven't even thought about any of them dying for real, and illogically I hope they never do because the thought is horrible. I just love playing around with emotions, mainly those of grief and loss and hopelessness. The emptiness I imagine you must feel when losing something irreparably... If you like these kind of subjects they're also found in my multi-chapter Aroma and a little bit my oneshot Beat.

But it's true what you say, everyone reacts to loss and grief differently. Kenzo chose to lock down, just.....seize to be, while Hiroto acts completely differently. Hopefully you'll understand more about their reasons for reacting the way they do in the next three chapters.

I feel like this is a completely inadequate reply to this comment. I really don't know how to respond. I'm so very flattered, and very happy you enjoy my story. Thank you so much!

[suslik_san]

don't get me wrong I didn't mean to imply a thought of either of them dying! Hopefully these are not our beloved jrockers but characters based on them, right? That's what I love AU for ^^V

it just came out because of the feeling I assume Kenzo got while watching Hiroto speak to Aki's tomb stone, like 'how can you do this', not accusing but really bewildered. That was what I felt while I listened to my friend. It was mentioned just for the sake of background information, I'm very sorry it confused you! I really didn't mean it like that

[invisiblehabits]

No, no, I really appreciate you share your feelings, especially personal ones. So don't worry, I'm very glad my story makes you reflect on things happening in your own life. ^^

But yes, this is merely a work of fiction. Or so I hope! Otherwise I've killed two of my favourite jrockers! O__O Haha, there's even a film about that....a writer who writes books which always ends with the main character dying, and you follow a man who hears a voice sort of....narrating his life. Turns out he's the main character in her latest book and so he goes to find the author to try and prevent she kills him. I can't remember the name of the film though... :P

[invisiblehabits]

Hahaha, you must've read this so many times by now! Bits and pieces back and forth. Thank you for that! You helped me out quite a few times when I just wanted to strangle that little bastard of a depressed ex-drummer

[roses_areblue]

Thanks for the update. I have to read more. Next chapter please.
I hate to say i like it. I hate to say it's beautiful and so full of love because it is a sad story. But they will soon find new love, and thats the beautifull thing in this story.

So, take your time and keep on writing beautifull story : )

[invisiblehabits]

You're most welcome, thank you for reading it! You are allowed to say you love the sadness, that the pain and hurt is beautiful. I think such things are beautiful, otherwise I wouldn't write them, right? Now I really hope you'll like the ending of this too... ^^

[invisiblehabits]

Please, by all means, ramble on as much as you wish! I quite love to hear your thoughts. Homosexuality DOES raise problems, makes things awkward and problematic, sometimes a lot worse than that. I didn't even think all that much about it when I first wrote it, to be honest, it was mostly a way to describe Kenzo's past. But reading back and thinking about it, reading your comment, makes me feel accomplished somehow, because it does reflect the reality in a way. Like you said, it's there but not quite.

Kenzo is terribly hard to get to know. I'm not even sure I know him even after writing this. But Hiroto tries and that, to me, is beautiful in and of itself. He keeps trying, even when he gets very little response.

[invisiblehabits]

The worst part is....my Kenzo muse seems to ALWAYS be so closed down and unwilling to let people in! Here, in Beat, in War and Peace and Vampires... Apparently he likes to be that way, making my life a hell of a lot more difficult when I have to write him. Good thing I enjoy trying to decipher him, with excellent help from the foremost expert in the field or I would be doomed, otherwise I would've given up a long time ago...

Sometimes things are better when just hinted at. So thank you, really. ^^