Well school has started back up and its going ok. so far that is. nothin special about the classes just gen ed i prefer to get out of the way. I've come to a decision that i am moving back home. It seems like my best option. I know its what best for me as a person. I will miss school a little , only b/c i beleive its routine and easy that way. I ( Read more... )

When coming back home for the holidays everything just seems so strange. You see old friends, those you want to see and those you hope not to see. It seems so odd how everythings come to be and how everything has changed so much. For everything in your life to be different as you never thought it might be makes you just wonder why things happen ( Read more... )

Everything seems so much easier when your young, your carefree, absolutely fearless, and the most important thing you end up having to worry about is who found who in a game of hide and seek. So much more thought goes into your every day life as you get older. Nothing seems to be as it is. Like a trip to the playground is just that when your a kid ( Read more... )

Douchebag. That is all.

Dont you just hate going home to noone. Going home to an apartment that feels so alone. Yeah i have a roommate but shes a weirdo. We dont talk at all. I'm so sick of this single life. I wanna share what i have with someone. I dont want arguments i just want everything to go well for once with a guy. I miss my brother. I miss my family. I cant wait ( Read more... )

that mood where your not quite sure what your supposed to feel, or think , or do. Or maybe I'm just in the state where I feel like i'm dying b/c my head is pounding and my throat is being taken over by little white spots that make me feel horrible. I think being by yourself when you are sick is quite possibly the worst feeling ever. Its weird I ( Read more... )

I think yesterday would have to be one of the hardest days i've been through in my life. I've never really had to deal with death or people in my family getting old and just realizing how sad it truly is. My grandmother went into the hospital yesterday. I knew i had to go visit her b/c its been so long since i've seen her. It wasnt that i didnt ( Read more... )

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HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I just had to get that out. Wow. I feel kinda better.

I think my hearts somewhere in chicago. I miss it.


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I cant do this anymore.. pretend I'm happy somewhere when I'm not.