We made promises we couldn't keep.
001. name: Ashleigh
002. nicknames: Ackerman, Ash
003. sex: girl
004. birthday: august 27
005. star sign: virgo
006. place of birth: rochester
007. current residence: same
008. hair colour: brown
009. eye color: brown
010. height: 5'6" ish
011. writing hand: righty
Body ills and skills
012. do you bite your nails: no. ew.
013. can you roll your tongue: yes..even with a tongue ring
014. can you raise one eyebrow at a time: haha idk never tried
016. can you blow smoke rings: nope
017. can you blow spit bubbles: gross
018. can you cross your eyes: yes
019. colored hair: no
020. tattoos and where : no
021. piercing and where: ears, cartilidge, tongue
022. do you make your bed daily: not daily
023. what goes on first undershirt/bra or underwear: underwear
024. which shoe goes on first: whichever i find first
025. speaking of shoes, have you thrown one at someone: hm i dont recall
026. how much money is usually in your wallet?: i always have 100 for 'emergency' then whatever my paycheck happens to be. so around 300ish on a good day
027. what jewelry do you wear 24/7: rings, necklace
028. what's sexiest on a guy: smile, teeth
029. what's sexiest on a girl: ass
030: Would you rather be on time and look ok or late and look great: on time and okay
031. do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it: cut
032. how many cereals are in your cabinet: like 80 my brother and sister are out of control
033. what utensils do you use eating pizza: the only pizza i cut up is pizza huts so hands
034. do you cook: sometimes
Grooming
035. how often do you brush your teeth: when i wake up, before i go out every time, before bed
036. how often do you shower/bathe: at least once, sometimes twice a day
037. how long do these showers last: til the hot water runs out
038. hair drying method: if i straighten it, i blowdry it. if i don't ponytail = air dry
039. do you paint your nails: wrong
040. do you swear: yes
041. do you mumble to yourself: lol yes
042. do you spit in public: ew
043. do you pee in the shower: no
044. whats in your cd player: spitalfield & matchbook romance
045. person you talk most on the phone with: paul. since he's gotten the most drunken phone calls
046. what color is your bedroom: white. soon to be blue
047. do you use an alarm clock: yes
048. name one thing or person you're obsessed with: Shane West <3
049. have you ever skinny dipped with the opposite sex: yes
050. ever sunbathed in the nude: wrong
051. window seat or aisle: aisle
052. what's your sleeping position: however i fall asleep
053. what kind of bed do you like: i have 2
054. in hot weather do you use a blanket: yes
055. do you snore: negative
056. do you sleepwalk: negative
057. do you talk in your sleep: no, but i make noises or something according to everyone
058. do you sleep with a stuffed animal: yes, bear
059. how about the light on: hell no
060. do you fall asleep with the tv or radio on: i used to with the radio, but not anymore
Last time you:
061. had sex: never
062. were kissed: 4 days ago
063. watched bambi: long time
064. cried: a while
065. talked on the phone: last night
066. read a book: school
067. punched someone: i punched tim last night
Music
068. is music important to you: very
069. do you sing?: yes i do
070. what instruments do you play?: none
071. what do you think of Eminem: he rules?
Do you like:
072. pop music: mhm
073. rock music: sure
074. punk music: yes
075. rap music: yes
076. hip-Hop/RB: its okay
077. country: sure
078. jazz: wrong
079. classical: wrong
080. new age: wronggg
081. what is one band/singer you like that no one has heard of?: Ben Jelen
082. favorite lyrics: I have a lot.
ABC'S
A - Act your age: nope
B - Born on what day of the week: Thursday I think
C - Chore you hate: Dishes
D - Dad's name? Frank
E - Essential makeup item? lipgloss
F - Favorite actor? Shane West & Ashton Kutcher
G - Gold or silver? silver
H - Hometown? Rochester
I - Instruments you play? no
J - Job title? HMSHOST bitch
K - Kids? 1 girl, 1 boy - Cadence Elizabeth & Tyler Michael
L - Living arrangements? mom, justin, kenzie
M - Mom's name? Diane
N - Number of people you've kissed? more then 20 probably
O - Overnight hospital stays? none thank god
P - Phobia? the dark
Q - Quote you like? even though they hurt you, they're still the one you want, you're gonna feel this way til the day you dont
R - Religion? baptist if you want to get specific
T - Time you wake up? anytime between 8 and 10 on days i dont have to work
U - Unique habit? hm
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat? broccoli
W - Worst habit? caring too much about people
X - Xena Warrior Princess!: reminds me of 6th grade
Y - Yummy food you make? seven layer cookiessss
Z - Zodiac Sign? virgo
well that cured boredom for 10 minutes. I don't have to work today. Or tomorrow. Or Saturday. I don't know how I got so god damned lucky, but here I am. I'm seriously thinking about quitting. Yesterday, Allison needed help in the kitchen and I was over there helping her and Jacob came over and started wigging out at me because I didn't take the muffins out. I was like Allison is by herself and you don't need a Jr.Baker, you'll be alright. So then Chrissy comes over [there's way more to her that I'll explain later] and she starts wigging out at me. I'm like WHAT THE FUCK, FINE, I'LL FUCKIN GO BACK OVER THERE. So she follows me back to Dunkin and is like come on, I'll pull your drawer, so I went all attitude and we pulled my drawer and I punched out and left an hour and a half early. So many things about the host are bothering me. I was promised 3 days at BK 2 days at Dunkin since I am so fucking sick of being at Dunkin 40 hours a week. I got one week of that promise and now I'm back to Dunkin. Chrissy plays favorites so bad. Jacob, Sarah, Justin, Nick & Jimmy get whatever the fuck they want in that place and it's absolutely ridiculous since none of them do SHIT. I love the boys to death but they suck. Well, I hate Nick, I lied. He's a fucking asshole. Either way. Jacob & Sarah we're talking about going for the supervisor posistion that is opening and I flat out told Jacob and Chrissy that I wouldn't listen to Jacob. Chrissy kinda glared at me and was like 'yes you would'. No, I really wouldn't thanks. Jacob couldn't boss me around if he tried. Look at Chrissy, she can't boss us around for shit. No one listens to what she says. She's too friendly with people. You gotta be fuckin mean or you won't get your way. Sarah doesn't deserve to be AL let alone a supervisor and everyone fuckin knows it. She's just 'in' or whatever so Chrissy is making it happen. It's bullshit. Sarah called out one day and then came in later that day with her fucking boyfriend to see Chrissy. THAT IS FUCKED. Jacob did the same thing. He called in, then went in to get his paycheck. That's so wrong. Chrissy let's it happen tho. I don't understand? I guess I shouldn't? I don't know. I'm going to the host later today to talk to Lisa and if something doesn't change then I'm leaving. I can't deal with the stress that place puts on me. God damn.
I've been fighting with someone a lot lately and I'm not sure why. I think it's because I'm finally trying to move on and by being a complete fucking asshole to them I assume it's going to make things easier but it isn't. And if you're reading this, please know that I am sorry. It's just so hard, like I've told you plenty of times.
Aside of that, I shouldn't even care after all the shit that he's put me through. I've dealt with and put up with so much bullshit from him but I still go back to him. I can't walk away. I've tried, trust me. Every part of me holds onto him. I don't know why. I do so much for him and get shit on in return. I'm just an idiot. I tell myself this everyday, but I don't care. I'm so attatched. And after everything that we've been through, I'll keep hanging on. RETARDDDDD. :( ugh. One day.
Ready, Set, Go. I miss the scene. I miss going to shows, I miss seeing everyone. I missed the DLD show on Sunday. I LOVE DLD. WHY DIDNT I GO? Because I'm a moron. That's why. Ugh. I need to fuckin get my shit together. Show whores, tell me when shows are. kthanx.
I really have become a huge bitch. Not to some people, but to just everyone. I'm finally not giving a fuck. I used to be such a pushover but I'm so sick and tired of it. So, if I'm a bitch to you, don't take it personally and think it's a new thing that will fade. Because it won't.
I miss Katie & Karin. I haven't seen them in so long. We need to play.
I suppose I shall share my party stories from the past few nights.
Friday, Joe had people over at his house and I had all intentions of going and hanging out and what not. Then Brett started being a complete dickhead so I kinda shook it off and went and got the alcohol figuring that it'd blow over after a little while. wrong. I texted Joe to ask about Brett and he told me that he'd be a dickhead all night. I was like gay. I was like yeah, I just got alcohol, he's like me too. I was like wow, how fucking gay. I texted him back and was like obviously I'm not good enough for you or the only reason you wanted me there was for alcohol so fuck you. no response. Awesome. I went over to Abbey's for awhile and I came home and Brett IMed me from Joes. I was being a sarcastic bitch, par usual and Joe gets on the computer and he's like Brett wasn't being a dick. I was like whatever, then he got all apologetic and was like I wanted you to come drink and chill with us and I'm sorry that it didn't happen. blah blah. I woke up on Saturday with all intentions of hating him for the rest of my life. This was the last time I was going to let him hurt me. UGH. I went into work and I checked my phone around 230. 1 missed call. Joe Home. I called his house back, no answer. Called his cell. 'hey' 'hi' 'you called?' 'yeah I left a message' 'oh, I didnt check it' 'you should' 'k bye' *click* I check my voicemail. He basically appologized for the night before and told me that things weren't how they seemed. It was cute. I wanted to cry. Bastard.
I had Kelley, Allison, Dooz, John & Tom at my house on Saturday. Oh god. We played beer pong. John was my partner the first time, we beat Al & Kelley. Then we played Dooz and Tom and I can't remember who won that game. Hartford ended up getting all wasted and whatnot and threw up all over herself, my couch and the floor like a little faggot. I laughed cuz I was so wasted and was so pissed the next morning. I made her clean it as we both basically puked. I HATE PUKINGGGG. Ew. If you ever come to my house and throw up I'm ending your life.
Sunday night was just out of control. It was me, Dooz, Tom, Chris Jones, Carrie & Shorty from work, Allison. Played some beer pong and what not. Tom was DD'ing so he was drinking Dr. Pepper and Cherry Coke like the man. I tried to get him to drink my beer but he wouldn't. haha. I was sitting next to him on the couch and I was drunk and whatnot and I spilled my beer all over my shirt and all over my pants so I went to go upstairs and change my pants and Dooz tried to follow me. WRONG. hahaha. I changed my clothes and came back downstairs to find Dooz & Shorty hanging. oh boy. Dooz is a fuckin whore when he's wasted so I could only imagine where this was going to go. I spilled my beer again. Tom took it. :( hahaha. Shorty & Dooz disappeared. I went upstairs with Tom adn we walked in my room and there they were on my bed. FULLY CLOTHED for all you dirtballs. Well, shorty had no shirt on. But yeah. Me and Tom just laughed and went back downstairs, played some more empty cup pong. 20 minutes pass maybe? Honestly, I do not remember very much of this night. Some things here and there. Like this part, I'll never forget. I went back upstairs, this time with I dont remember, anyways, I walk in my room and they went from my bed to my floor. Dooz was naked. BUTT NAKED. [haha I just laughed out loud, not kidding] straddling shorty, but she had pants on. I was drunk, so I was confused, so I went downstairs and told everyone at my house. We went back upstairs to take pics with camera phones but when we opned the door and turned on the light shorty was fully dressed and dooz was puttin on his pants. Holy shit, greatest night of my life. I won't tell what happened, because it's not my place but oh boy. The boys left cuz the roads were so shitty and whatnot. So it was me, Shorty, Carrie, Allison & Pehta. Shorty starts getting rowdy and carrying around a bottle of Irish Creme. Ew. She gets all wasted and ends up passing out in my hallway. Carrie decides it's time to go, so she heads home too. It's me, pehta & allison. I wont tell what happens next but I regret every second of it and all I thought of was someone else. NO I DIDNT HAVE SEX OR ANYTHING LIKE IT. But I did attempt to teach Mike to kiss before I was so grossed out I wanted to die. He's like 'you're a awesome kisser ... *attack face* GET AWAY FROM MEEEEE. Good god. Ha, I remember talking to mr. Brandon Reed. HAHAHA. ;) Good effing times. I love that boy. I MISS YOU BRANDONNN.
Pictures:
Dooz & Chris. Blurryness = me not being able to hold the camera steady. haha.
Dooz.
Dooz & Shorty
Tom - Reppin' DD with Dr. Pepper & Cherry Coke. [Best picture ever]
Shorty.. hahaha
Shorty again.. try to look at her face. hahahaha
And, I'm not sure who took this picture, but thats Shorty, completely wasted, doing I dont know what.
And, for the record, that big ass black tarp over my 'window' isn't cuz we're ghetto. We're getting new windows and the guy went to put it in and it fell on him and knocked him unconcious and so we had the fire department, ambulance, police everyone here and now we have to wait for a new window to come in and that's what they put there in place of it. Hot huh? Thought so.
I want to have people over again this weekend. But a few people won't be there. Shorty- duh. Stupid Slut. And Pehta, cuz I didn't even want him there in the first place. AND yeah. k.
This has been my longest el-jay post ever. If you read all of this props to you. <3