I wish someone would take an axe and scalp me to keep the focus away from my bleeding heart ( Read more... )

Four years ago, on February 28, I wrote in my journal my love for Joey Ramirez. I went into detail about how he made me feel, how he found me when I was invisible, and how much I "longed" to have him kiss me ( Read more... )

I was hoping something spectacular would happen in my life. Something worth living for. But I'm alone, and it never hurt worse. To feel a sting from someone who would never love you, not even care for you. Knowing that there was a possibility to care for a person inside, but finding out its dead, and wont be resurrected ( Read more... )

I never thought I could feel so low as to be used, and abused, and kicked into the dirt, into the cabinet in the back of someones mind. To be left like a doll under a girl's bed, collecting dust, collecting memories, untouched by a heart, untouched by a care. Touched with naked fingers, naked lips without emotion. To be driven to an end somewhere. ( Read more... )

A lot of things have been happening. Guillotine Children is getting recorded, and we're finally a permanent band. I've started dating again. And it's with a person I never thought I'd really like. Rhys is a kind of guy who I feel comfortable with. I have a sense of "at ease" when I'm around him. One that I've been searching to find. I feel secure. ( Read more... )

Dialog between myself and the Day ( Read more... )

Never said God wasn't there. He's just hiding from me right now ( Read more... )

Micah and I hoocked up on Saint Patty's and about 2 months later broke up because I'm a selfish bitch and I don't know what the fuck I want. No. On second thought...I do know what I want ( Read more... )

My grandfather is dying. He's in the hospital right now, and I came back from the most horrible trip I've ever taken ( Read more... )

Alot has happened this weekend. Far surpasses last weekend, I believe. Went out on Sunday night and got Mirrormask, which was phenomanal (sp), and Run Lola Run. About the gazillionth time I've seen Run... but it's a great movie anyway. Sunday night went on a double date with Katie and her boyfriend. She set me up with her friend Alex, who two weeks ( Read more... )