I cried my eyes out last night.

[ipeestanding]

"Because I want to get the hell out of this country." I said.

I replied. He was going to say yes, I knew he was going to say yes, Daniel always eventually said yes.

"OK I guess so" He said. Then he paused "what are we going to do there?" he asked. I could see that he was nervous about spending time in the third world me, a girl.

"same ol' same

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[rockettestar]

Your right...it was worth it.
Good writing dan...good writing

This reminds me of a conversation I had about this
"humanity defines its existence by pain and suffering"

http://www.livejournal.com/users/bottom_2_top/15249.html?thread=242321#t242321

[ipeestanding]

Thanks katie.
I wonder how many people take the time to read this posts anymore. They probably skip them. Oh well I love writting them and atleast I have them saved somewhere I can always read them.
I didn't mean to say that humans define themselves through pain and suffering. I meant to say that people were made for adventure.
My life has felt really dull lately. you know school work, church, school work church, school work church. just so much routine.
Then on sunday night I left the service I was attending and found a back room and wrote this long beautiful letter to God. That night it felt like he took layers off my heart. Then I went home and wrote that story. you see I can only write when my heart is raw. God is my real muse. (I love you anyways)
Hey I am 22 tomarrow. (march 2nd)
~Dan

[rockettestar]

I definatly don't skip them, so know you have at least one audiance member ;) I love your writing mainly because I know its straight from your heart, even before you told me that...I knew.

Its your birthday tomorrow! Oh how exciting! What are you going to do?! Can Victor and I come celebrate with you tomorrow night sometime? I would love to see you-especially on your birthday- coooooool

I know you didn't mean humans define themselves through pain and suffering...It just sort of reminded me my veiws on that statment. Like you were saying "This is exactly how extreme life must be to feel alive." We need those ups and downs- we aren't meant to live cubical lives.

I really hope you get your adventure soon.

<3
kt

[hopefulhero]

Thanks.

[moonshadcandle]

I really like that Daniel!

[laomendon]

Dan, it's dave. I made this account for the sole reason of commenting. I love you man. I know I say that, but I say it cause I really mean it. I know I sometimes just open my mouth for the hell of it. Other times I don't know what to say at all, I don't have any of the right answers. I don't know your struggles or what it's like to live your life. If I knew how I would carry some of the stress for you, lately you've seemed so bogged down.

Even though we're not numbero uno pals, you've been such a great friend to me. You've inspired me time and time again, you've suprised me and given me good advice. You make me feel valued and appreciated. You're one of the few people I've seen jesus in for real.

I so want and hope you kick this dry spell in the ass. I wanna see you back at 110% where you belong. Do whatever it takes man. Mexico or whatever; blow up a gas station, win the national kareoke competition, start your own country. You're worth it.

[ipeestanding]

Thanks man,
I have this thought, let me bounce it off you.
crap in life can makes you either desperate or depressed.
I think I am going to choose desperate.
~Dan
PS. you make me laugh even when you are being encouraging.

El buro sabe mas que tu

[anonymous]

WE'RE GOING TO MEXICO!!!!!!!!!!!
You are aware that I am a vampire and that I will be forcing you to listen too good grunge music on the way there and back. And also that if Antonio Banderas is there, I wont be returning with you.