history won't always repeat itself.

[ipushipull]

life turns into such a downcast with you constantly prying into it -- even with me being three hundred and twenty miles away, you're closer than ever. i've let go a long time ago, whyyyyyyyy can't you?

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[routinefumbling]

you are so damn pretty!! and this entry is the story of my life right now. boy that i've been on and off with for five yrs! decides to come back again. it's always him coming back and me being pathetic enough to miss it and fall again. i'm glad you aren't going for it though. and what do you do to your eyes? i like em.

ready for a novel, ha

[ipushipull]

I'm so far and beyond it anymore. being out here, I've been through a lot or shit, trying to figure out who I am. I've made way too many sacrifices to go back to such a toxic part of my life. I don't have time to rebuild myself, I just wanna live. its not even frustrating being alone anymore at this age, its harder to foresee how some idiot guy's behavior will never change, and it'll never end - knowing that I'm not even who or what he REALLY wants. that he's willing to persue his way back in, with his mindgames intact, eager to hurt me again. it's sick!!!!!!

sidenote, I just use a lot of dark browns and tan eye shadows. the lighting was weird in that pic, so my eyes loook darker and creepy hahah
tyyyyyy