trials of self-truth
Last night I ran to beat the thunder/rain storm. It was sweet, even though I lost to the rain and ended up soaked. This morning I ran on the wildlife trails and fell in love with the landscape all over again. There were rolling hills and more rolling hills. I love TREES. And I love trails that run through the hills. and through the woods and the streams. There were raspberry bushes and blueberry bushes too! It just feels so good to be the only human being for miles. To be surrounded by nothing but woods or water.
Then I had to work 9.5 hours. I closed with Keith and we made fun of Nick the whole time. (Nick is the dude that invited me over for that hellish night.) When I got home, I sat on the dock for two hours with my dad. Once the people on the point stopped their huge bonfire, it was peaceful. Just a few camp lights on and the chirping from the loons and frogs. The stars were so bright they reflected off the lake. I have never seen that or noticed that before. I saw three shooting stars and it was even kind of cool. I had to wear a long sleeve shirt! I like this night weather. It's comforting and fresh. It's just right. The way it should be: warm in the day and cooler at night.
I'm getting kind of sad about leaving. I won't be able to really go outside in AR until it cools off. I've just learned how to be happy in Maine and I feel closer to my friends here. It's difficult when you love both places. I had a fantastic time yesterday at Debra's place. Elise and Jessie came over too and we all had the big Robertson sunday dinner, hehe. It was a nice day off. I can't believe next Saturday is my last day of work. I can't believe it's so soon. Ah, there is so much I wanna do before I go. There are so many people I wanna see, I need to see. I had the best conversation with Pete last night and he convinced me that a true friendship with a guy is possible. I have it with him and it's so satisfying.